~ this is the countdown.. ~
anyway, so much for the waterworks..i watched the prestige last night and just loved it :) haha..i got really interested when i got to see the trailer..and i'm glad that it was worth watching :p i kinda got confused during the movie and even thought that it might be boring..but i didn't find it as such :p i wanna read the novel! (coz my cousin told me it's based from one)..hope you guys could watch it! and i hope you'll like it too :) i got home at about 12:30 and slept at 1am.. :p
this morning, i got up really early to go to school to help out in cosca.. :D nice experience although i kinda got nervous when i was helping in announcing our For The Kids activity recruitment..i'm not really used to going around and announcing stuff to people.. :p
there..i'm really out of ideas..and i really have to go and do stuff..
ps: sadly, i do not think wish number 7 could be repeated :( i'm sooo off my usual work habits this term..hayyyy..oh well..i could still do better next term..and i promise to do so :D
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, October 28, 2006,3:31 PM
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it's been a week of no blogging..wow, i can't believe i wasn't able to blog for that long..well, it's not that i don't have anything to blog about..i guess i'm just really lazy to do it..but now, all that's changed and here i am again :p
lazy..yes, that is the word for the week (well, the term, actually) ..it somehow describes my state for the past few days..hayy, naku! ewan ko ba..basta sobrang tinatamad ako talaga.. i really don't know when it started..i guess it's been there ever since the term started..it's just fluctuating but it's really present..*sigh* also, it's paired with a "something-is-missing-but-i-don't-know-what" feeling..i honestly do not know where all this is coming from..could it be boredom? hmmm..that is a possibility..
i felt sad these past few days..i missed a lot of things and people..and to add more to the feeling of loneliness, i felt more sentimental because the chilly breeze of christmas is already around..don't get me wrong, christmas is a very happy thought..but i don't know..when you're thinking deep thoughts and contemplating stuff, then suddenly the chilly breeze blows around your shoulder..parang nakaka-lungkot na ewan.. :p (thanks nga pala to mico, lily, carmela and paulene for the nice hang-out session at amphi last thursday even though i felt really nostalgic afterwards :p)
anyway, the week wasn't all that bad, even if i AM lazy, things (well, academic stuff) are doing ok..not the "flying colors" type of ok, but i'm still fine, thankfully :) i really had fun last night at greenbelt with carmela, paulene, soy, stephen and jennelle..thanks guys :p
(carmela, paulene and soy..kulit nyo! :p hehehe..next time sa bahay nyo naman ah! :p haha)
anyway, i'm too lazy to continue this post..masarap pa sana magkwento pero nakakatamad..and i still have to do a lot of stuff..coz..
i can feel the pressure..it's getting closer now--pressure by paramore
end notes:
*there was no anger..only sadness and fear, mostly..can you blame me?
*what the mind denies, the heart recognizes..*ehem*
*it's not enough that you grow old..you should grow up.. :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, October 21, 2006,8:24 PM
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~ come fly with me.. come fly, let's fly away... ~
things last night took a little turn towards crazy ville.. well, not all that much..let's just say it wasn't planned in advance :p
it was nachos night, you see..i really didn't know what we were celebrating, reader (jon claims that it was the Term-End Celebration for THEM...yes, excluding me :( ..he loves saying those things in my face, buhuhu :p) anyway, i thought the night was just the same old hohum nights we usually have because we hadn't done any "sessions" recently..i even reacted when my tita said there was beer..i got a bit disappointed though, when i found out that she was referring to rootBEER..haha :p
at the end of dinner, my tito and tita were drinking some dessert wine..so there, me and tessa were just sitting there watching then suddenly, my tito asked if we wanted some rum-coke..since i haven't really tried that (well, i haven't tried a lot of things yet.. :p) i said okay..that was where everything started..haha :p my tito brought out every drink he had so that we would able to taste them.. :p
these are the drinks we were able to try last night..
1. rum-coke -- i really liked this one.. :) hehe..it was coke with a little spice in it :p
2. rum without coke -- i still liked it..it was kinda sweet :)
3. gin -- specifically, gilbey's (the green one)...it was really fragrant! almost smells like perfume..i think this was the drink that we took advantage of :p i think we (tessa and i) had about 6 to 8 shots of it..haha :p (well, i had one less than her coz i put water in my glass and gin in hers when she was out of the room, haha, gotcha tessa! :p) we both ended up with red faces after drinking these..haha :p
4. white rum -- ewww..smells like the regular rum but kinda tastes like gasoline (if i had to taste one, haha :p)
5. sake -- is the spelling correct? anyway, i think this was the mildest of all the drinks we took..it was our, shall we say, ending remarks..because tessa was already dancing around the room during that time :p hahaha..
..i ended up kinda dizzy but i was still right in the head (high tolerance DAW ako, haha :p) i still got to chat with tep's friends for a while..(yuck, naki-epal daw, ahihi :p) and still got to have some girl talk with hanna and tessa before finally going to bed.. :p
..today..well, i got up early as if nothing had happened..hehehe :) i should get to work now, in exchange for that little crazy night we had :p
:p a nice week ahead!
~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, October 15, 2006,9:01 AM
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~ no words can explain.. ~
commuting gives me sooo much room to think about stuff..from the tiniest of details to the weirdest questions on earth..everything just makes its way through this feeble brain of mine (and mind you, i commute 5 days a week..*torture without effort* :p)
while walking towards the mrt station the other day, i remembered a certain issue of the sandman graphic novel/comic book i was reading last vacation..i think the title of the issue is Calliope (not sure of the spelling :p) ..it' s about this writer who, in the end part of the story, was cursed by Dream with an abundance of ideas (because it was what he wanted in the first place)..and eventually became insane..
(try browsing through it, reader..you'll find it interesting :p)
sometimes i wonder if i'm getting close to receiving the same curse..i mean, things pop up in my head just like that..and controlling it eventually leads me to think still of something else..thus i go around in circles..it's quite tiring, reader..and sometimes, i wish to stop..i cannot even escape thinking about stuff when i sleep because everything i think about eventually turns up in my dreams..waaaaa! :o (my heads hurts at this very moment, so to speak..)
anyway, it's just a thought (still :p).. i'm pretty sure all of us have these thoughts lurking in our brains all the time..i just happen to maximize them..(cue spongebob saying "imagination" while forming a rainbow with his hand..haha)
*-thoughts for a not-so-usual week-*
so what of the week that was? hmmm..it wasn't so bad, actually..things turned out to be okay..surprisingly, this week has been quite eventful, well, compared to the last few weeks of school..
..the sea of black is upon us because, once again..it's graduation season! :) ironically, the color black which usually stands for mourning and sadness is somehow used now to symbolize happiness..(a thought again :p) but, all the same..congratulations to the graduates! i wish them all the best there is :p use your compass to guide you through, as said by the speaker :) i loved her speech, by the way..really had me thinking, yet again! x_x
..i remember my dad saying, "yung wala talaga sa'yo, yun yung gusto mo.." hayyy..so true, so true..(i know carmela would agree, haha :p) it's sooo hard to be contented in this life..being human, we're given more options, and thus we try and find more than what we have..that's just the way things are, i guess..though one may claim that he or she is already happy with things as they are, there will always come a point where you'll want and try to go on further..
i had once liked a certain something..let's call it "hmm hmm"..eventually, my like for "hmm hmm" had grown weary (maybe because something else had caught my attention or i just didn't want it anymore)..now, something happened..and i actually have the chance to have "hmm hmm"..but i don't want it..though i don't mind for it being around..i swear i don't want it..in this case, my question is..why now??
..i had brief but frequent encounters with uncertainty this week..the first few ones were fine..i tried not to mind them anymore because i know i'll just end up being bothered..but the most recent ones..grrrr..i hated them..it's hard for me to wish them to go away because if not for uncertainty, where would the thrill of things come from, right? but then again, things are slowly being predictable..and i know, just like my need for "hmm hmm" this uncertainty would die down eventually..
inphil this week was okay..trash that past entry..from now on, no pre-judging, hehe :p i'll just see things out when the term ends..
*-my brother, my executioner-*
i had already finished this book last week..i think the novel was nice and is a close to accurate depiction of filipino life..the setting was during the rebel (hukbalahap) uprising but the events in the story are somehow still similar to the things happening recently..as for the main character, luis..i think it was selfishness that conquered his being..(spoiler incoming) it was a sad and depressing ending..
anyways, i think i'm out of ideas for the meantime..well, i'm actually not but even if i use all the words in the world, there's no real way for me to describe or explain what and how i really feel..all the same, i'm really thankful that i still have the people whom i could always count on..thank you guys! you know who you are :) and of course, God is always there, whatever happens :)
better days! :D
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, October 13, 2006,10:21 PM
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~ black with patterns of gray and orange.. ~
the day was not that bad at all, given that it's a thursday (i dread my TTH schedule..well, i hate them both but all the more with the looong subject hours..sheesh! :p)
econ was..well, it was okay..i think i'll pass that one (hopefully)
besides the test..well, econ was interesting..and i'll leave at that (haha..behave, people!! you know who you are! hmp..)
no market for today..cbe recognition rites..i loved the speaker..too bad we had to leave at the middle of things because we had classes for...
finama..i'm soo happy i passed the test! :) hehe..i promise to do better next time (that's this tuesday na! oh no!! :p)
me and the dormers had dinner at kfc..it was fun! i miss dorming, hehe :D thanks guys! :p
hmmm...i'm not talking about you know what..it was a promise.. :D hahaha (labo)
better days! :D
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, October 12, 2006,8:06 PM
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that is how i would describe my finama1 quiz earlier.. :'( i am as good as dead with that one..so much for fulfilling the 7th wish i have on my list *sigh* i was completely dazed (o_O)
..hopefully, i'd still be able to catch up on my future quizzes..this was really a wake up call..bigtime :-/
..another quiz coming up on thursday! econtwo this time..*sigh* another very uninteresting subject for me..hopefully, i'll still do ok with it.. :) anyone care to tutor? haha..
*-mind the the gap (but learn to grow)-*
i have a passion for learning..about anything especially when it is interesting and my instructor is a good motivator..but when i don't get to learn anything, even if the subject interests me..the passion somehow loses its flame..
i had been talking complaining about my intphil classes for the longest time..i had wanted to drop the subject ever since 1st week of classes, but to my dismay, my mom and dad won't let me do it..well, they did give me a chance..they asked me to give valid arguments so that they would agree to my proposition..needless to say, i tried my best but no..they did not allow for it to happen..
last week, i had made the issue alive again when i arrived home..i had rambled about it again..that the teacher is weird and confusing, that i don't learn anything (well, a bit i guess) and that being away from blockmates made my situation more difficult..i think (well, with the look that my mom gave me) she finally understood me..i had wanted to tell them that things were different during their time because they went to classes as a block section from start to finish (well, except for my dad..haha!) and that i had really wanted to learn something from my brief encounter with intphil..you see, i'd rather be taught and then think about stuff afterwards than find out stuff on my own..lazy :p hehehe..but there..i did not drop and i rest my case..call it generation gap but i hope next time, my parents would take things on a new perspective..well, who knows? i might be wrong about this whole thing all along..haha..we'll see :)
*after re-reading that write-up..i think i'm too biased..haha :D well, can you blame me? there's sooo much room left for me to grow up..
anyway, i still have stuff to do.. :p i have to focus now..hehe :D
*-end note-*
are you a wikipedia user? did you know that the stuff there could easily be tampered by anyone?? hahaha..let's just say the words "while so i say pluh" and the classical era have something to do with it..haha..
(the author wishes to express her peace to those involved in the issue :p)
..oh, try wikimapia too! see your house from there.. :p
...smile! :) God bless!
~ isabel ~ posted @
Tuesday, October 10, 2006,7:51 PM
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~ this time..i mean it.. ~
it is officially a closed deal..i (still) can't believe i've finally done it.. another one slashed out of my list..right now, i still don't know if i'm happy or sad about it..i guess it was ok..hurt? uhm, i'll get back to you on that, reader..for now, the final deciding act has been done and it's over with..
no more, no more, no more.. and i will do my best to stand by that statement permanently (hahaha, hopefully :p) well, except of course if something else were to happen..other than my doing, haha :D..
*-...with benefits-*
my sister and i have this habit of playing music every night (from the laptop, of course :p)..and the songs are mostly..well, one might call it "love songs"..haha :p sometimes we would sing (also in the shower :p) or tell stories about how we feel about a certain song..or who we remember by it..i believe that you understand what i'm saying, reader..
anyway, last night, while the song head over feet by alanis morisette was playing, specifically the line saying, "you're my best friend...best friend with benefits.." here was the conversation that took place..
kat: gusto ko nun, best friend with benefits..haha!
me: oo naman noh, masarap kaya magka-best friend na guy..pero hindi naman yung ganun na "benefits"..
(we both laugh; jon passes by the hallway)
jon: with benefits ah, anu un, insurance? with benefits..
(kat and i laugh more..embarrassed..i suppose)
kat: kahit anu naman sabihin, may benefit naman eh..
me: oo naman noh..friends nga eh..
how do you define this line saying "with benefits" anyway? i had encountered the statement once again this afternoon while leafing through a magazine..but the implications were more on intimacy than just mere friendship..but isn't that what the statement implies in the first place? haha..oh well..i leave that thought to you, reader..but for me, i think it would be really nice to have a guy best friend..in itself, it would be a benefit :p haha.. (although some people won't agree..*ehem)
*-snip, snip-*
i had a haircut today..but it's not really that noticeable, hehe..just a trim..coz my sister's insisting that it's already too long..i feel quite weird after haircuts because my hair ends up straight after the blowdry..ndi ako sanay..haha :)
some people say i look better with straight hair but i dunno..i still have to say that i like my natural wavy hair better :p (for the meantime..) what do you think, reader?
...anyway, i'll be studying na in a while..i have a quiz in finama1 tomorrow eh, i have to memorize all the formulas pa.. haha.. :p
better days! :p
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, October 09, 2006,4:48 PM
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hello reader..
well, needless to say..the week is done and it's another boring friday for me..boring coz i wanna do something (actually, do something else, coz i have stuff to do)..hmmm..for lack of anything to say, here..i am blogging again..hahaha :p (reader, do give me suggestions or if you have no one to talk to, give me a ring..or anything..haha :p)
today was nothing new..carmela had finally showed up for class after a long absence..paulene, on the other hand, is still missing in action..according to carmela, peebs might be suffering from dengue but i hope the tests would show otherwise (get well soon paulene! :p)
the day??
--hmm..we learned the PHStat software in comsta2 (quite useful :p)..
--we had a very interesting discussion of "at ako'y inanod" in litera1.. i side with jowee (or rather rein) in her suggestion that loloy had raped pepita..(how could i have been so careless not to see the word "mata" at the end of that sentence?) tsk tsk..anyway, were done with loloy's "excuse" letter..in comes "the summer solstice" for next week..
--intphil..i had some kulitan moments with abby and faith before class (haha) the class itself was quite confusing (as always, though it's quite short) and we're asked to make our own creation story..(our group had nice ideas..) funny, we ended up saying, "ang hirap pala maging si God" making things out of nothing.. :p anyway, i'll do a draft in a while (maybe i'll post it on my gotcaughtup blog..haha :p)
--had lunch at munch alley with the twins and jowee..wasn't able to talk with carmela but i'm texting her at this moment (hehe)
--hung out at amphitheater with amelie, liana, nancy and jowee..saw familiar faces (elka & aj, nathan, katrina and mico) then went home together with nancy (my occasional mrt-lrt riding buddy, hehe :p)
that's it..i'll be going home to batangas tomorrow..hopefully :p
stay safe, reader! :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, October 06, 2006,5:41 PM
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~ no title for this one.. :p ~
i think almost everyone (yes, including you, reader..) would agree when i say that things which have gone missing most of the time turn up:
(1) at the least likely place you've left them
(2) when you're looking for something else, or
(3) when you're not looking for them anymore
frustrating? maybe a bit..
in the duration of absence, your anticipation in finding the object builds up..you say to yourself, "sana makita ko na yun..nasan na ba yun??" (with matching prayers, more or less :p)
gradually, when time passes by and you still haven't found your missing-in-action stuff, you compromise..you learn to live and say, "oh well..that's that.."
..and then, ting! (insert choir of angels background music) a miracle! you find it!! but when you do come across that certain something, the feeling, compared to the moment when you're really struggling to find the object, is not quite the same anymore..yes, there is the feeling of joy and also relief, but think about it..if you had found your mislaid whatever at the exact moment you were looking for it, don't you think the reaction would have been different?
i would not lie, i was happy, true..and somehow, relieved that everything seemed fine..this would sound pathetic, especially for those who know this little fib to full extent (well, to the extent of what i share)..but, truth was..i think i just tried to build up the feeling of "happiness"..i can't really explain it but yeah, i tried to heighten the emotion when in reality, what i felt was not at par with what i showed..argh, it's so hard to explain..even i don't fully understand it.. :-/
(insert scene when "and he pressed her hand at parting.. did she still care?..the answer hardly interested him.." ahahaha, could it be?? :p)
hmmm..oh well, that's that..but as they say in tagalog, ayoko magsalita ng tapos..let's just see what happens..but judging from things, dun na nga ata hahantong yun :p
*the day that was*
--attended comsta2, litera1 and intphil..same old information feeding.. :p sometimes i feel kinda inferior..coz i'm not so sure i'm really processing the stuff i'm "learning"..i feel somewhat like a robot..argh, okay, enough of that..
--went to pizza hut for nancy's blow-out..thanks nancy! :) i really find nancy quite funny..she's always expecting "the surprise" from us when in reality, wala naman talaga..she would even try to "piece the puzzle" herself, watching our every move..kaso, wala talaga eh..sorry nancy :p
--watched the pep rally..globe's giving out free animo sim cards but the line was toooo long.. :p
--dropped by carmela's dorm to visit her coz she's sick :p (although i wasn't able to see her..)
--went book shopping (not for me though, hehe :p)
that was my day.. steady :p
*trivia*
--i could actually hear the MRT here at our house..(at the shower, specifically haha :p) amazing how sound travels..hehehe :p
--our room in market1 (L109) is haunted daw..hahaha :) dont have first hand eperience though..(and i don't want to have one :p)
anyway, keep smiling, reader! :) hehe God bless! :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, October 04, 2006,5:42 PM
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hmm..nothing really new..just attended my classes as usual..comsta2..errr, the quiz?? well, first of all, the lrt had some problems again to my dismay..let's just say i ended up running along the halls to get to class..and with that, my mind went in panic and i forgot what i had studied (which was not much to begin with) .. :-/ *sigh* if i had arrived just a bit earlier, i cud have prepared myself better..but that's that..hopefully, i'll still pass that test *praying*..
litera1..dead stars is officially dead..(that's lame, i know :p hehe) well, we finished discussing it today..gave me a few insights (haha..uh huh..it did :p) i recommend it to those who are having some two-timing problems..kidding! :p you guys read it! (JIRO! BASAHIN MO..baka makarelate ka! you remind me of alfredo..haha :p joke! ) anyway, we're starting on a new story..
(wait, hold on..katrina handed me some hershey's..yum yum..courtesy of stephen..thanks! sweetest ever!..haha :p)
anyway, going back..the new story is at ako'y inaanod..janie and i we're partners for the activity in class..i really thought the story was just simple..until janie explained to me that loloy and pepita *toooot* at the end of the story..and this is actually the whole point of the story to begin with (hahaha! :p) shocking, but thanks janie for helping me understand the story.. especially for the laughtrips during litera :) (love ur laugh, ever! :p)
intphil/intfilo..boring :p i'm really quiet in this class..well, kinda..no blockmates eh..and the guys in this class are..mostly upperclassmen (3rd year, terminal..etc.) well, at least i think i got a nod from my professor when i recited (i think :p)
after class, i met up with amelie and nancy at the benches near amphi..nancy had to go to class after a while then liana showed up..we all went up to COSCA..and then something happened..*no more details* but i guess i should say sorry to amelie.. :) yaan na yun..
hang-out at amphi with carmela and paulene (as always! :p) and.. i think something's goin' on...haha :)
oh yeah, beben texted me today (mishu busmate! hehe..) enjoy your "sembreak" :p
i guess that's it..to wrap it up, one of the lines i remembered in dead stars...
"..So all these years - since when- he had been seeing the light of dead stars, long extinguished, yet seemingly still in their appointed places in the heavens.."
i'm glad i'm still smiling :) better do the same!
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, October 02, 2006,8:46 PM
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