a view from my side..

~ thought bubble ~

HAPPY 2011!
WOOOOHOOOO!!

Another year to have great adventures!

Let's go!!
rant@ 1/17/11 :P

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~ looking out ~

~ cool stuff ~
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~Letters to Crushes~
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~Jiro's Deviantart~
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~30-sec Bunnies Theater Library~
~The IMPOSSIBLE quiz~
~Yahoo Games~
~Serious Shorts~
~What does your name mean?~
~http://youdiehard.blogspot.com~
~http://www.pinoyblogosphere.com~
~SA on B :)~

~ friends ~
~amelie colobong~
~arik abu~
~arnel cosme~
~avis alibuyog~
~carmela ugay~
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~anton silver~
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~neil gaiman~

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~ about.. ~

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.. sorry for being a lazy b*tch. lol.

I'm stuck in a different time zone as of the moment. ;)

--isabel--atebel--isa--bel--bei--

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~ wishing on a star ~

reason
happiness :)
know and do what I really want
not be afraid
~~a music box :)~~
~~scream out loud~~
~~graduate :p~~

Credits
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udub
Thank You! :)

~ letters.. ~

dear you,

i had actually thought that you were the one who had been insensitive lately, but recently, i realized that i also had my own faults..that it was i who had detached myself..and i am sorry for that. i'm sorry if i cannot fulfill the things that i should be doing for you.. i know that i am not obliged to do them but i feel that you deserve better than how i've been treating you these days..however, i hope you'd also come to realize that you yourself should be trying too. these things do not work if only one person does their thing..till now, there are a lot of things that i simply cannot understand about you..but still, i try. again, i am sorry, but i do hope you understand what i am going through right now..please do..

love, me.

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dear you,

i am sorry for how i acted that day..and the other day as well..i was being childish during the first incident and should have understood your side (though you should understand my side as well..). as for the other incident, i think i was caught off guard and really didn't know what to say..thus, i ended up saying the wrong things and hurting your feelings (i assume)..the truth is, i really don't know what more i can do for you right now..i mean, i can tell you all the nicest things in the world..but the truth is, it wouldn't really matter or do anything good at this point..because all the rest is up to you and your decisions..maybe, somehow, a part of me felt that you needed the truth..argh, this is so hard..still, if the worst may come, i hope you'll always remember that i will always believe in you and in what you can do..and i will always be around to help..after all, that's what friends are for :)

take care
always, me

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dear you,

i'm sorry if ever i had startled you with what i've said..but i think you deserved it at that time. after all, one cannot be so kind all the time..still, i hope things would be ok between us. friends, ok?

p.s. don't push things too hard..you might get hurt.. :)
signed, me

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dear you,

thank you for letting me pour my heart out to you the other week. you've been listening to the same old stuff since forever but you never got tired of it. for all the advices, sharing and simple listening, thank you from the bottom of my heart. you are one of the best listeners ever :)

p.s. things have gone better. i'll tell you about them soon enough :)
love, me

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dear you,

i miss you..but thank you for understanding. you are the best, ever.. **hug!**

see you soon
love, me.

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dear you,

thank you for the small but "in-depth" chats we have..which ever path you choose, as i've said, we'll be here for you :) as long as you're happy with that decision :)

friends forever
love, me

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you,

go away..far away..i don't need you right now..in fact, you are the last thing i ever need at this moment.

i hate you..
signed, me

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dear you,

even though i find it so hard to express how i really feel (i think we both do, hehe), please know that i am trying my very best, ok? you know that you are special to me so better take care of yourself, ok? don't give anybody a hard time and do what you have to do. :)

**hug**
love, me

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dear you,

sorry if i am not able to keep all of my promises lately..i know you know that life's busy and hard lately..keep in mind though that i still try spending time with you guys..of course i still miss all the long hang-outs..you of all people should know that :)

good luck to us :)
love, me

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dear you,

what else can i say? thank you thank you thank you a million times..words will never be enough but really, thanks :)

love, me
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status: still sick, still flooded with projects..luckily, still breathing *sigh*

still looking forward but..i dunno..basta, as long as i'm happy, ok na yun for me :)

He'll help me through this, i know :)

~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, November 30, 2006,3:21 PM

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~ could you blame me? ~

i just got home from the golden wedding anniversary of my lolo and lola (brother of my real lolo, mother side)..haayyy..so sweet..things like these are soooo rare nowadays..what more can i say, they are the few lucky ones left in this world who are worthy enough to have that one true love.. congratulations and best wishes to them :)

i'm supposed to be studying now but knowing me..wala pa sa mood so i decided to visit my blog for a while.. :)

i've been receiving quite a handful of quotes lately..a lot of them are quite annoying but a few are still worth the memory space in my phone.. :p anyway, here are a few of the ones that caught my attention..

"you couldn't possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. look, i'm sorry you miss how i looked at you, but i don't miss how you never looked at me"
-- dawson's creek

"the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference. if you hate me, you still care"
--desperate housewives

"he used to be so sweet and everything seemed so nice when we're together..but suddenly, everything changed..i couldn't figure out how or why..not until now that i've realized..i never really missed him..i just miss the guy i thought he was.."
--c/o carmela :p haha

funny..i suddenly realized that i just talked about love from two different perspectives..hahaha.. :) is cynicism creeping in on me? of course not..with all the love around me and in this world..i will always believe in that thing called love :p mwehehehe

okay, what am i saying?? maybe i'm jst in a state of panic now..a horrible thing is within range..waaaah :'( could you blame me if i really do not like her? she's awful..but i pity her for that..and a lot of other things..she is living a lie..

anyway, i had some talk with my tita earlier this afternoon regarding..errr, something..let's just say i ended up having a headache after the conversation..haha..could you blame me if i remember those things vividly? don't worry, i'll be indifferent soon enough (though i'm still thinking if that's a good thought or not..) tita told me to just leave things be..(maaayos din daw ang lahat) and somehow, i think i will.. after all, what goes around comes around.. :p

to those waiting for the blind item stuff i usually put here, my apologies if i do not have any good material which you may ponder about..hahaha..maybe next time :)

*** why are you so insensitive lately?..i'm starting to hate you..you're too curious..don't worry, you'll be fine..you better clean up your act..you're annoying..how dare you..you've changed..*sigh* you, again???..i miss you..thank you :) ***

okay, i don't know what the hell i'm saying anymore..till the next entry.. :p still have lots to do! :)

oh, before i forget, i had fun watching absurdo and komedi..although i was kinda disappointed coz i didn't see bern nor sir dennis perform :-/ maybe next time...hayyy..

God bless! :)

~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, November 25, 2006,10:03 PM

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~ movie marathon :p ~

i had just come home from the movies..hehe :p correction, 2 movies! hahaha..since they were good, i decided to write about them..(feeling critic :p)

**--the prestige--**

this is actually the second time i watched this flick..hehe..i really liked it..i mean, i found the storyline quite interesting (i wanted to watch the movie the moment i got to see the trailer! :p)even if the first few scenes are kinda dragging (but they were actually important :p)..and of course, what's not to like about hugh jackman and christian bale, right?? wehehehehe :D i also like michael caine as an actor so there :) david bowe's role was quite interesting too! hehe

so as not to spoil the movie for those people who haven't seen them *ehem* i won't go into too much details..i feel kinda slow on things..i only got to spot several notable and important scenes in the storyline when i watched it for the second time..haha :p oh well..i even spotted hanna's comment about scarlett's trying-hard-but-not-successful accent :p

"are you watching closely?"

things would come out clearer by the middle-to-end part of the story..the timeline is actually a bit confusing but all in all, the movie was great :) i never expected things to end that way (or maybe i'm just really slow, haha :p) i hated christian bale on the first part of the movie..at the back of my mind, he was a cold blooded a**hole..(although he's still oh-so-dreamy :p) hugh jackman, hmmm..he's hot to begin with but he caught my eye on this one :p *wink wink*

better watch it! :p (hope you'll like it as much as i did!)

screen shots! :D (from http://movies.msn.com)

**before i forget, thanks much to carmela and paulene for watching with chi and i.. :) next time ulit!

**--casino royale--**

to tell you the truth, reader, i really didn't like daniel craig as james bond at first (especially when i saw the trailer) ..i mean, i'm not a true blue 007 fan or anything but my first reaction upon seeing the preview: bakit siya? parang hindi bagay..(with matching gestures of disgust, haha :D)

after watching the movie, i totally changed my mind..i mean, yeah, i guess he's not that attractive at first glance..but if you get to watch the movie, you'll feel that he was right for the role after all.. :) there were even scenes where i found him rather charming (wahaha! :p) and his blue eyes are also worth noticing ;)

i guess they just had to cast a guy with a pretty good poker face..not to mention the pouting lips, hahaha :p but as i've said, he ain't so bad..and he fits the role :)

chemistry with the bond girl, eva green wasn't so bad either..i found their bickering rather amusing.. :D i especially liked their scene in the shower (i know what first came in mind, reader but it's not what your thinking, haha..no details..better watch it! :p)

what i like more about this 007 film is that it's pretty realistic..he's got real bleeding wounds this time and he screams bloody murder during the torture scene (watch out for that! i'm a girl but i jerked at my seat and felt his pain..mwehehehe! :p ) there's no overload of techy gadgets too so i guess that's pretty real, right? :p and..he falls in love..(insert awww sounds)

screen shots! :p (http://movies.msn.com)

thanks to tita, tito, jon, han and tes (ow, and chi too! ) :p had fun! jon, ur good at movie analysis..may future talaga sa psych..(connection?? :p) hehehe..

lesson learned: never judge a movie before you even get to watch it, hahaha :p

till the next movie marathon (i'm all out on cash eh! :p)

God bless! :D

~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, November 19, 2006,12:12 AM

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~ letters and other notes ~

since i have a slight difficulty in expressing myself orally and personally..here.. :p

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dear you,

i'm having a hard time deciding about what you've been asking me..it's bothering me already (sigh) i know you have good intentions but malayo pa naman yun and i have other things to worry about at this moment..i am reluctant to have anything done for that day because of certain unfortunate events coming the week after [ huhuhu :'( ] i appreciate everything, though..thank you :)

love, me :)

dear you and you,

you're both forgiven..no hard feelings but please, next time, try and be sensitive..ok? :) as i've said, it was okay with me..i think kilala nyo naman ako when it comes to those things but what about the other person? wala na ako magagawa for now but with us three, ..settled, ok? :p

peace out! :p

signed, me :)

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dear you,

hahaha..i wasn't expecting you'd actually talk with me earlier..hiya ako! :p (star-struck ba?? wehehe) even though you see me as your batchmate's older sister, i'm glad you're really friendly..see you around! :D wehehe..

p.s. i'll be introducing you to two people next time (hopefully, hahaha :p) because they get envious whenever we greet each other, hahaha :p

thanks for the friendly face :)
signed, me :p

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dear you,

ewan..hmmm..sorry ba yung tamang word? wala naman ata akong ginawa/ginagawa..basta ako, ok lang ako..

ayun..

signed, me

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dear you,

thanks! i've really missed you soooo much! :D see you around and thanks for comforting me :)

love, me :)

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dear you,

thank you sa sharing, hehehe..next time ulit! :D shhhhh, alright? :)

ingat palagi! :p

love, me :p

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dear you,

hmmm..ewan din..you know what you need to do..you're better than that and you know that..

you'll make it, don't worry! :p

good luck! :)

signed, me :)

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**-- on "bad faith" --**

we had an interesting discussion earlier in intphil about jean paul sartre's notion on bad faith/self deception..(hahaha, guilty ba? :p) i got a bit embarrassed too..

me: (semi-daydreaming/sleepy but still listening to the professor..)

prof: one of the most popular examples of bad faith is the "woman with a suitor"...blah,blah,blah...kunyari, kumakain sila ng dinner, then all of a sudden, the guy holds the hand of the girl..then the girl notices and thinks, "anu ba yan? uhm..hindi, siguro, wala lang yan" ...(makes funny/weird gestures on the subject...)

me: (yawns..looks at the blackboard then at the prof)

prof: (looks at the direction where i am seated) ikaw? ano ba magiging reaction mo pag ginawa yun sa'yo?? di ba??

me: (stares blankly then realizes i'm the person the prof is talking to) ...uhm (asks myself, "ako ba kausap?")

the discussion continued eventually..hehe..nahiya lang ako coz i didn't know ako pala yung kausap :p hehehe..

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...hmmm..may sunog ba talaga kanina?? sayang naman ung Ate/Kuya GA for FTK :(

anyway, cge, i still have to study INTPHIL [ huhuhu.. :'( ]

God bless guys! :D

~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, November 15, 2006,3:58 PM

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~ update again.. ~

once again, it's enrollment season..wow..just one year ago, we were in the same position but as frosh people (har, har) actually, nothing's changed..enrolling was still as difficult and time consuming as it was before :p

...of course now, i know better :p (kahit papanu) hehehe..and i managed to get a not-so-hassle-though-not-the-real-one i-want schedule :p hehehe..oh well..ganun talaga :)

anyway, my sister's back! yipee! i'm not alone na sa room, mwehehehe (compliments to jowee for letting me use her signature text-laugh :p) and we have new bedsheets! yey! i just love them even if i had to be the one to change both our (me and my sister's) beds..(not to mention clean the room, pay the laundry..etc..) bitter ba?? hehehe :D

**--piCs--**

the two beds..i stuck them together to make a bigger bed while chi was gone :p (pero ndi din comfy..)

my bed! i like my prints better, haha :D

anyway, on other things..we had our test in finama earlier..i hope i passed that one..:)

hayyy..anything else?? hmmm, none at the moment..tessa's begun working at the call center already (grabe, hanga ako sa kanya, i can't imagine myself doing the things she's doing..and with no help from anyone..galing nya :p) gud luck tessa! :D libre mo kami sa pay day mo, hehehe :D

better days! :D

God bless :p

~ isabel ~ posted @
Tuesday, November 14, 2006,8:42 PM

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~ para maiba naman ~

kay tagal ko nang hindi sumusulat..kaya't ito, ako'y magsusulat na muna sa aking sariling lenggwahe..hehehe.. :p

sa totoo lamang, wala akong gaanong maisip sabahin ngayon..ewan ko ba, sa dami ng aking iniisip ay hindi na ako makapagsulat ng panibagong tala dito sa aking blog.. :p

hmmm..sa ngayon ay matiwasay pa naman ang mga bagay bagay..minsan ay nahihirapan ako ngunit sino bang hindi, di ba? lahat tayo ay may kanya kanya lamang mga pasakit sa buhay kaya't para sa akin ay ayos pa naman ang mga bagay bagay :p

para sa nakaraang linggo, ito ang ilan sa mga kaalaalalang mga pangyayari:

*art in advertising - ako'y naaliw kay binibining zamora sa forum na ito..kahit na medyo masasabing kakaiba siya (at isa sa mga iniiwasang maging propesor sa market1) eh nakakatuwa pa rin naman siya bilang isang ispiker kahit papaano.. :p marami din akong natutunan mula sa kanya at natuwa kami ni amelie at rachelle sa mga pinagawa sa amin sa unang forum..sa ikalawa ay naglakas loob kami ni amelie na umupo sa pinakaharap..haha :p

*ang pangyayari sa intphil - namura ng husto ang isa sa aking mga kaklase ng aming propesor..ilan sa mga salitang lumabas sa kanyang bibig ay: "coz you are so fucking smart..you're full of shit..that's so fucking stupid of you.." ayan.. naawa din naman ako sa aking kaklase..malas din siya sapagkat ikalawang beses na nyang mapansin ng aming guro..marahil, ito ang dahilan kaya't napuno na rin si ginoong apolega..ewan ko..basta, iyon na yun (para sa mas detalyadong kwento ukol dito, lapitan lamang ang awtor ng blog na ito)

*tsokolate..hmmm..sinong nabigyan? hahaha..(sa mga nakakaalam ng detalye ukol dito, wag ninyo akong isumbong sa kanya.. :p hehehe)

*sino daw ang masyadong seryoso sa klase?? hmmm..mag ingat at baka kung anung kahinatnan ng mga ganitong bagay :p hehe..

*sinong sabog?..hindi ka naman magagalit kaya ayos lamang na sabihin ko kung sino ka..biro lang..pagagalitan na lamang kita sa telepono o kaya naman ay sa susunod na hindi ka handa para sa pagsusulit.. :p

*ang pangyayari sa SPS canteen..sino nga ba ang pipiliin nya at sino ang masasaktan? (kung nais mapanuod ang video ukol dito, magtanong ng detalye kay amelie, carmela o kay bern) haha :)

*nang liparin at mahulog sa pond ang mga katanungan sa aking nalalabing pagsusulit sa intphil..hahaha, wala kang kasalanan amelie, hindi mo naman kontrolado ang hangin, hehehe..salamat sa paghahanap mo ng maintenance para lamang makuha ang papel at salamat na rin sa pagpapa-photocopy kasama ko :p humingi ka ng tawad sa mga isda na maaaring mamatay sa pagkain ng papel na iyon, hehehe :D

hmmm..wala na akong maisip isali dito..sumasakit na rin ang akin ulo sa paggagawa ng aming comsta2..at madami pang ibang bagay ang kailangan kong tapusin.. :p

hayyyy..kay bilis ng panahon..online enrollment nanaman.. :( nakakainis ang panibagong patakaran..malamang, dahil doon ay magkakahiwalay talaga kami ng mga klase..pero titingnan na rin lamang natin..sabi nga ni jon sa akin, may dahilan malamang kung bakit mangyayari ang mga mangyayari..salamat jon sa pagbibigay gabay :p

sige, dito na lamang..tinatamad na talaga ako :p

Kaawaan kayo ng Diyos (hahaha, parang lola na ko! :p God bless lng yan ha! :D )

~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, November 11, 2006,9:15 PM

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~ another day has passed.. ~

**first of all, i had just confirmed bro. rafael donato's death..lasallians and everyone else, please pray for the repose of his soul..i never got the chance to know him personally, but i have met him and and occasionally got to greet him back in high school..i look up to him coz he's done a lot of great things..so there..wherever you are, bro. rafe, thank you for being an inspiration..**

**it's over!!**

i'm so glad our hell day is over, reader..yipee! :p although i can't really say that i did well for today, i'm glad it's over..thank God :) to summarize..hmm..econtwo was torture..i hope i'll still be able to pass though (praying)..market1 was disastrous..in jowee's words, it was the worst defense ever..hahaha..(come what may for our grades..) and finama..huhu..well, i wasn't able to finish the exam so, there..(hoping my score is still acceptable)..

hmm..what of other things? there's nothing really new, reader..although i'm kinda getting into something recently..and it's not a good thing..and neither is it something that is expected of me..i better stop it soon before it gets to me..i should behave myself :p haha..especially because..(erased with the author's consent)..

**...some things are better off unsaid..**

i guess it may be true..a friend once told me that one should not mention things if it would be the cause of conflict..so maybe what he was trying to say was that it was better to not say anything than to lie or tell the painful truth..(though i am driven to believe that is more or less subjective..what do you think, reader? :p) nonetheless, why speak about something which you cannot (probably) back up, right? (and i've committed that mistake one too many times already..including this afternoon during market1 period, haha :p)

anyway, i've done my part..and i'm not expecting anything (anymore)..as another someone had told me..."ibigay mo na lang kay God, cya na bahala sa'yo.." nice advice..i'm trying to live it out :p

** one final thought **

i know this is out of the blue but please answer this one, reader..what's the difference between hoping and expecting?? i think i know but i'm having a hard time explaining it..ewan, pumasok lng bigla sa isip ko, haha..please do share your thoughts.. (tag or comment..kahit walang name..thanks! :D)

**God bless :)

~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, November 02, 2006,10:25 PM

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