I'm still kinda not over this song..really love it even though it's some sort of a sad break up song..if you're reading this post at my blogger account, the video is posted in one of my past posts (if you're interested :p ). I'll upload the song in my multiply in a while :)
********It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dyin breath of
This love we've been workin on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms
We're goin down
And you can see it too
We're goin down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear
We're slow dancing in a burnin room
I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw
I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand
We're goin down
And you can see it too
We're goin down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear
We're slow dancing in a burnin room
Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you
Go cry about it why don't you
My dear, we're slow dancin' in a burnin' room,
Burnin' room, burnin' room
Burnin' room, burnin' room
Don't you think we oughta know by now
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
Don't you think we oughta know by now
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
Don't you think we oughta know by now
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow
Labels: John Mayer
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, July 28, 2007,4:39 PM
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I really wish for that little miracle to push through..It's more of hoping rather than expecting at this point. It's not for me though but I really do hope God will find a way, His way to make it happen :) Praying..
Come next week, we shall see..Labels: hoping, praying
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, July 25, 2007,12:41 AM
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~ just to fill in some space.. :) ~
Hmmm..I'm typing so as to use my multiply blog account (which is cross-blogged wih Blogger) which I think I have been disregarding recently. Ahh..nothing really much to say right now..Well, actually, there's a lot, haha :p It's been a long, tiring yet fun day as well :) hahaha! Sadly, I missed the 1st GA of COSCA volunteers and didn't get to see Patty and Jepoy dance the pony (though Amelie was kind enough to show a clip, haha!). I wasn't able to go because I had another meeting to attend to for BEA. It was one of those times when I really wanted to have two bodies at the same time just to do everything I need and want to. Anyway, I had a nice time at the meeting nevertheless, and it was worthwhile. Kuya Joey from COSCA was there so things were alright. Disaster Management was the main topic and I'd rather not tell much about it here because I really don't want to think too much right now (a bit sleepy) but I really do hope the plans and suggestions will push through because it's really for the best of everyone. Went by COSCA office for a while and saw Shem (a fellow volunteer who's already working), who shared her teaching experiences at ICA (3rd grade, Math and Science). I even got to see her lab manuals and the pictures (and high-class sounding names, hehe :p) of her students. Thanks Shem! :) Thanks to Soty, Migs, Ate Amy, Kuya Joey, Ate Jenny, Ate Lala and of course Ate Ems, hehehe :p
Anyhow, just kinda got home from Ignite, MaFIA's party at Absinth Greenbelt 3. The party wasn't bad at all. The place was flooded with people but I guess that only means that the party was successful, right? :) Oh, one important note before anything else: I was able to make Amelie drink (or sip, rather, as she puts it, hahaha :p)!!! It was just rum coke though so things were okay. I on the other hand got all wooozy after the first one because I gulped it all in with an empty stomach (bad move, haha!) so I decided I was done for the night (haha, just kidding!). Got to see lots of people..Java, Gelo (thanks for going to the fountain for me :p)..Blockmates (hallooo!)..Hybrid (LIA-COM) Super Friends, Jepoy (went home early, booo!) and Stan (and his friend Vanessa :p) and the profs and classmates who were there as well (for the incentive too, I guess :p) oh yeah, si RG was there too..and I saw Glenna as well..hahaha :p Thanks to Amelie too for being my new gimik buddy (joke!). House of the Dead, hahaha..bulok natin! :p
Hmmm..what else? I think something's up..I can feel it, hahaha :) Something sort of back-fired but not really..and I'm not really sure either, wehehehe :p
I'll end this here coz I really wanna go home tomorrow..have to wake up early..(i wish! ;p)
Labels: bea, cosca, mafia, me, memories, pressure, sad, smiles, stuff, true friends
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, July 21, 2007,10:09 PM
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I just found out about this song recently. Since my love for John Mayer has resurfaced a bit recently (Yeah, haha), here's another one of his lovely songs. It's one of those songs which you shouldn't probably listen to when you've just suffered a heartbreak. I find it nice though, even if it's from a guy's point of view. Kinda bittersweet..
Anyhoo, enough of the chitchat..here it is..
Labels: comfortable, John Mayer, senti/emo-mode
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, July 20, 2007,12:35 AM
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It's been quite a day. I'm feeling a bit low about Finbank coz my score is completely devastating. However, I've already 'mourned' about it last week so I wasn't at all affected today..well, not as much as I expected.
Changed my site pic a while ago. I had done so because my shirt in the other one (which was white) didn't jive with the site theme. Or...
maybe I'm really just oh-so-vain, haha! :) got a haircut today that wasn't at all noticeable :p
Tons of papers ahead..whooptidee!
**Quoting Around**
Since I've started it anyway, here are some quotes I've received that I'd like to share.. :)
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"We can be happy anytime once we understand that the only place we'll ever find genuine happiness is right inside us. Happiness begins at the point of acceptance: the point when we stop questioning why life can't be perfect and just accept the world the way it is."
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"Some people say that you'll never know what you had until you lose it. But it's not like that because you will always know what you had..you just never thought you'd lose it.."
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"Socrates was once asked, 'What is the cure for love at first sight?'
The philosopher replied, 'Take a closer second look.'"
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Hmmm, I actually dozed off while I was writing this last night so don't be fooled by the date of the entry. Anyhow, hmmm..a lot's been happening lately but life's still a bit boring for me. I've been really feeling weird lately. My moodiness is on a roll most especially when 'something' happens..Argh, I really hate my mood swings. There are times when even I am surprised with the things I say and do. To make the long story short, I've been kinda turning into a straight forward bitch lately..hahaha..Well, I really don't know. I guess the nice or the so-called '
mabait' side has its limits too. For those who have fallen victim to my moodiness, well, you had it coming, I guess..hahaha :) Nah, I'm just kidding. Forgive me for the slip-ups.. I am human too..i think :p
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Well, what can I say, I've melted and fallen in love again :)
With John Mayer, that is.. :)
Maroon 5's Infatuation isn't bad either..Anyways, till the next one :)
No fuzzy notes for you for the meantime, hahaha :)
Labels: John Mayer, moody me, quotes
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, July 18, 2007,12:40 AM
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just sharing some quotes i receive from people.. :) some of them get quite annoying when they send too much in one day (taking advantage of the unlitxt promo of globe, i suppose). some of them are nice though.. thank you to those people, you know who you guys are..
reader, if you can relate to any of these, well.. enjoy! :) haha
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"...when peter pan saw tinkerbell again after quite some time, he asked: why did you have to go away for so long?
tinkerbell replied:
you never gave me a reason to come back. i was always there when you needed me, but i guess you never showed how important i am to your life..now it's different and now we've changed..but i'm still smiling..
peter pan then asked her: why?
tinkerbell: i myself don't know the reason..it's just that now..it's your time to miss me."
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"i wish someone, just one, in this world would be able to understand how i feel - someone who will comfort me; someone who will make me feel pure bliss; someone who will give me importance; someone who is willing to give the time just to know the real me regardless of my moodswings; someone who knows what i feel even without saying a word
and lastly,
...i wish that someone exists.."
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"after careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what i've decided. there's no such thing as a grown-up. we move out, we move away from our families. but the basic insecurities, the fears and the old wounds just grow up with us. just when you think life has forced you to truly become an adult, your mother says something like that. we get bigger, taller, older. but for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in."
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"it is wiser not to expect but to hope for in expecting, we meet disappointments whereas in hoping, we invite surprises...and miracles."
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"have you ever noticed that the more special you treat someone, the more that someone takes you for geanted? maybe it's because they think you won't ever change..."
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"in our world of wrong choices, someday, someone will come into your world who will make you say...
this time i got it RIGHT :)"
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(this one i sent out this morning..haha :p i really liked it somehow.)
"one cannot question the existence of feelings; they are there, raw and undeniable. but one can choose to not nurture what is felt. yet no matter what they say, what has been felt will always be more honest than what was chosen. hence, true realities are not built by the mind but by the heart.. :)"
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anyhoo, it's not that i ran out of quotes to type..my sister wants to use the laptop and i have approximately 7 minutes to wrap this up, harharhar :)
hmmm..what else?
hey you..hmmm, i really don't know what to say but you effortlessly (for the lack of words) made me smile for the past few days..i know it's weird but there, i said it..the mere thought of you was enough to make me smile at myself but i don't know whether that's a good or a bad thing (hahaha!) anyway, whether you know who you are or not, i want to give my thanks.. :)
(reader, i wanna make this clear..hindi yan issue kaya wag nang palakihin! hahaha :p )
2 minutes left so i bid my farewell, hahaha!
kadiri! ang drama!
God bless guys! :)
Labels: not much time for labels, quotes
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, July 14, 2007,12:09 AM
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tingin ko, mas masasabi ko ito gamit ang tagalog.
sa totoo lang, marami na akong kinaiinisan simula pa nung isang araw...yung tipong gusto ko na talaga sumabog at magwala...waaaaaa! kung alam niyo lang. alam ko, oo..nandyan ang bisita ko pero naman...hindi naman ako maiinis ng ganun ganun na lang kung wala naman talagang kaiinisan eh.
*&#$&;%*@&!*@&@#^&**#&*$">*&#$&%*@&!*@&@#^&**#&*$*@*!!!
(at mag lagay pa ng mga pagmumurang hindi maiisip na sasabihin ko)
maraming nagsasabi sa akin na parang 'nakakatakot' daw ako kasi sabi nila, hindi pa raw nila ako nakikitang magalit kaya natatakot daw sila na makita yun...hmmmm...napaisip naman ako dun...panu nga ba ako magalit? hindi naman ata ganun kasama..
pero, ayun..ito..dagdag nanaman sa kabwisitan ko ang araw na ito..grabe talaga.
masama talaga ang loob ko ngayon..ginawa ko naman yung dapat kong gawin at ok naman ang lahat kanina..anu ba talagang problema ko at biglang hindi ako makasagot nun..sa totoo lang, nasusuka ako sa katangahan ko..nakakahiya..nung sinusubukan kong sumagot, walang lumabas..nakatulala lang ako sa papel ko..sobrang pinilit ko talagang makaalala..sa sobrang katangahan na naramdaman ko nun, parang nahihilo ako na nasusuka..nakakasuka talaga ang katangahan ko kanina..ang simple lang ng bagay na yun, hindi ko pa nagawa..
iniisip ko kung ito ang kapalit ng ginawa ko kagabi pero tingin ko, hindi naman eh. naayos ko naman ang sarili ko kaninang umaga at nakapag-aral ako.. hayyy naku..asar talaga ako sa sarili ko.
medyo ko na naman ako ngayon. gusto ko lang 'magsulat' kasi kahit gusto ko umiyak, hindi naman ako makaiyak. walang luhang lumalabas eh. tsaka nung gusto ko na umiyak kanina, sinundan ako ng kaibigan ko palabas ng kwarto. nahiya naman akong umiyak sa harap niya. dito ko na lang muna nilalabas ang sama ng loob ko para wala wala na lang ito bukas.
naiinis lang talaga ako kasi kahit madami nang nangyari...sa maraming bagay sa buhay ko...
...TANGA pa rin talaga ako.
alam ko naman na hindi maaayos ang mga bagay kung wala akong gagawin kaya kung anu man ang maging resulta, gagawin ko na lang yung magagawa ko. sabi nga ng isang kaibigan, maaayos din ang mga bagay bagay sa tamang oras..hayyy, sana nga..sana nga..
wow, naalala ko bigla, nakalagay sa calendar ng cellphone ko nung lunes..
"bad luck week, beware!!"
baka nga ito na yun..hahaha :)
ayan, ok na ako..may 'hahaha :)' na akong nalalaman.. :p masaya na rin ako, biyernes na ulit bukas...pahinga na ulit kahit papanu...
ayun na muna. pasiyensiya na sa 'angry entry' na ito. bahala na Siya sa akin at sa atin :)
Labels: angry entry, tanga
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, July 12, 2007,11:18 PM
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~ one title won't do anyway :p ~
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Yeeeeeey!! Yahoooooooo!!
**=insert more expressions of extreme I'm-so-hyper happiness then..
a BIG sigh of relief :p=**
**BIG SMILE!!**
July 2-6 2007 is officially a part of history. Thank God it's done.. :)
Special thanks to Amelie who's my classmate in every subject this term and obviously has suffered the same requirements needed for this week as I did (Sawa ka na ba? Haha! :p) ..I'm glad we made it through semi-hell week..Hmmm why semi? Coz I'm betting my money that there will be more hellish weeks/months far worse than that one. But hey, we'll just laugh about it afterwards so for now, it's all good. Yippee! :)
I also wanna say thank you to all the people who were and still are there too.
(Reader, since you're wasting your time looking at this, I'm sure you're one of those people..so THANKS! haha :p)
Knowing you guys will be there whatever happens helps me make it through even though I just wanna throw everything away in the trash. I love you all :)
(oh yeah, that's mushy-ness for you..and more to follow, haha!)
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Though this is already a bit late..
I wanna say..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOY! :)
Thank you for your cheerful and friendly spirit :)
Thanks din for the fun dinner last Friday
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I was a bit disappointed. I guess I had expected too much but it doesn't matter. Everything's done already and I realized a lot of things along the way, significant things. It's weird that after everything, I still want to give my thanks and that I'm not regretting any of it. I was given something to be hopeful about and something to make me believe that I am doing something good. Again the altruistic side of me (as a friend describes) had revealed herself. I had been blinded by the potential I saw (or chose to see, I really don't know ). I felt...well, honestly..I felt happy.
Did I ever expect anything in return? I had tried my very, very best not to. I tried to convince myself that everything was fine as long as things were doing well and I could see improvements, however small or seemingly insignificant they were. But being only human, I wanted something at the very least. No, it was nothing tangible (even though I very much appreciate being given such things). I cannot really explain it outright. There were even times when I had asked myself if it was the so-called L word I was hoping for. But again, I woke up from my childish fantasies and found out that no, that just wasn't it. So what was it then?
I still cannot find the right words to say or even describe what it is that I wanted. From what I could think of, it's a simple thing which could be expressed in numerous, different ways. I had typed down things which I thought would help describe it but them being too many, I had opted to press the backspace instead. Two simple heartfelt words would've sufficed.
It indeed has been a while and I can't even imagine why and how things had turned out as such but there, I'm better because if it. This is not the end because for me, ends and beginnings are just labels. Maybe it's a mix of both but whatever this may signify, I will still be here smiling and being thankful for everything that comes my way.
(and so that ends my emo-ness..haha :p)
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Okay, so I guess I've ran out of stuff to say once again, hahaha.. :) Hmmm...Oh, I wanna say thanks for the funny trip home I had last Friday with the three LMG boys:
RG, Ali and Harly. Don't worry,
hindi mababago mga tingin ko sa inyo, hahahaha :p But yeah, thanks a lot, guys :)
Jowee!! Thanks for being there to listen and suffer as Amelie and I did last Thursday night, hahaha! And of course, Thank You Sooo Much for making my
1st UAAP experience possible. I had enjoyed it very much! :) Animo La Salle!!
Paulene and Carmela..I miss you both sooo much (awwww!) Sana nga matuloy yung sleep over thingy...Hopefully, haha! Oh yeah, Paulene..alam mo na yun, hahaha! :)
Jez, thanks for the early morning text marathons and withstanding my weirdness and
kadramahan, wehehehe :)
Hanna! I don't need to explain further..haha! Thanks dear! Don't worry, you're okay and you're not a you-know-what-word-I'm-talking-about, hahaha ;)
To Him whom I owe everything, no words can express my eternal gratitude.
For those whom I failed to mention, I hope you wont take it against me, haha! You're all still special for me anyway..As I've said earlier, thank you for being there :)
Okay, enough mushy-ness for the day..I'm out.
Better days ahead! God Bless! :)
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Labels: 2words, happy, smiles, thankful
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, July 07, 2007,11:35 PM
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it's been a real while since i got to blog..been soooooo busy lately so even though i had numerous stuff to babble about, i had time issues and lazyness issues as well, nyehehehe (but more of the former than the latter) i even missed my bloggie's 1st birthday, haha! (it's on the 27th, btw :p ) anyway, hmmm..i'm in school right now coz it's been a good 4 days since the internet connection at home had gone bonkers..demmit..
very nice, pldt..i sooo love your timing..i have numerous papers+deadlines for the week..grrrr..
anyhoo, just had the urge to update..sort of..i have tons to write about but i'm really not in the mood right now..besides being pissed with pldt, the weather's gotten into me again and i'm on semi emo-mode..
isabel has been:
- doing school stuff (as usual)
- 'keeping' stuff (as usual)
- listening to maroon5's new album lately (they've changed their rhythm =sort of= but not the lyrics, right amelie? hahahaha! :p)
- trying to stay away from distractions..HAHAHA!
- sleeping early (in the morning..wehehehe)
- feeling steady
- intrigued with a certain someone..hahaha :p
- keeping her promises (and deadlines) true :p at least she thinks she has been..
- missing a lot of people..but glad to have spent time with them the other day
(Glenna, Earl, Jerahmeel, Salle and Joshua!! THANKS guys!! :D)
- turned into a Transformers fan, hahaha! kidding (the movie was good though! :p)
- the same old brand new her..
okay, i guess that's it for now..hope the weeks gonna go well for everyone :P
hmmm, that's it for the meantime, gotta go home! bye dears :D
Labels: no internet boo pldt, stuff, update
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, July 02, 2007,5:11 PM
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