I think I'm all better now. Must be the weather or something. Or maybe the workload and the thought that "Awwwww, everyone's on vacation mode and the Trimestral System is a pain, rawr!" well, whatever it is, I'm trying my best to get back to my senses.
Monday was...something. I could not believe that the wonderful afternoon, a conversation, a bench and a song could do such a thing. I tried keeping my guard up, not of embarrassment but because...I did not want to surrender to it.
I felt a bit awful and I had not even attended a single class. For what it's worth, I understood why. For now, I would do nothing, not because I choose not to, but because it is what the moment asks of me. Somehow, I would have to give my thanks and apologize.
I can't wait for the long weekend to come. We all deserve some rest, right? 
Anyway, I still owe Katrina, Paulene and Ali my 8 random things. Sorry guys! I'm too lazy to think of anything at the moment. Maybe I'll do it during the long weekend, haha! 
I'm finding my way back.
Labels: a day in my life, I Think God Can Explain, recovering
~ isabel ~ posted @
Tuesday, October 23, 2007,9:45 PM
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It has been a long, tiring, stressful, frustrating week. I have been feeling stressed out ever since the term began but this week, everything is almost at boiling point.
I honestly wanted to cry early on but after much contemplation, I found myself asking why I had wanted to do so in the first place. My subconscious lost its train of thought regarding the feeling of weakness and helplessness, and thus, the urge to cry vanished (for the moment).
I was pissed, true, but who wouldn't be? I mean, I already have a lot of things in mind and just wanted to take a break even for just a while. Well, yeah, I got that break alright. Anyway I just wanted to say how I felt but really, I'm fine now. Why? Well, maybe because, again, I decided to play the I-feel-oh-so-mature card and decided that dwelling on such petty things will not do me (or anybody else) any good. What's done is done. Enough said. Okay na yun.
Sometimes I wish I was just back to that person who simply minded my own business and went about what was needed to be done. I feel like that right now. I just do. I don't think I owe anyone an explanation.
A friend told me, "It's not the work that's stressful, it's the people."
It's just not my day/week/month so maybe that's why this post is...like this.
12 days of blog absence and this. Amazing, eh?
.:wishing, hoping, recovering:.
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Before I forget, it's Ate Pao's birthday today, well, at least in this side of the world.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE PAO! :)
Sorry, I know this greeting is somehow misplaced.
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I'll be back on track soon. I need to and I want to.
Labels: a day in my life, not in the mood for too many labels
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, October 20, 2007,10:54 PM
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...did I ever think that a time would come when I will have no time to update my blog.
(Or spend time/talk/hang-out with my family, high school and college friends..Hayyy... :-/ I MISS YOU ALL! If I could only cut myself up and spend enough time with all of you..)
This would be a short one, hehe :)
To summarize, a lot of stuff's been happening...
Stressful? Well, that isn't really new.
Life would be dull and boring without that element.
It's just a notch higher this time
with all the responsibilities coming up
besides the ones I already have..
I've been feeling a bit pressured and scared, I admit.
Everything's new to me and I'm having doubts with myself.
But nonetheless,
it's not as hard as it seems when you have people that you can count on :)
(awwwww! :P)
THANK YOU GUYS! :)
I'll elaborate soon. I really want to, haha!
But for the time being, it'll all have to wait.
...just like something
or...
someone ;p
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, October 08, 2007,7:15 PM
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