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HAPPY 2011!
WOOOOHOOOO!!

Another year to have great adventures!

Let's go!!
rant@ 1/17/11 :P


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*| isabel | many nicknames :P | 20teen 20ne | December baby | Pinay | Green | CBE Yuppie :P | frustrated.. everything :P | contradiction | curious | daydreamer | the late bloomer LOL | in search for more | open | neutral | smile freak :D | moody ;) |*

| God | family | friends | love | tunes | reads | life and living it | rain | sunshine | sleep | staying up late | artsy stuff | variety | internet | chatting | blogs | keeping it simple | helping out | cultures | drawing/doodling | talking | learning and doing new things | day(or night?)dreaming | dogs | memories | pictures | all things beautiful | happiness |


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~ looking out ~

~ cool stuff ~
~Improv Everywhere~
~Letters to Crushes~
~Travesty Clothing~
~Jiro's Deviantart~
~Post Secret~
~Newgrounds~
~30-sec Bunnies Theater Library~
~The IMPOSSIBLE quiz~
~Yahoo Games~
~Serious Shorts~
~What does your name mean?~
~http://youdiehard.blogspot.com~
~http://www.pinoyblogosphere.com~
~SA on B :)~

~ friends ~
~amelie colobong~
~arik abu~
~arnel cosme~
~avis alibuyog~
~carmela ugay~
~dominic yatco~
~earl foust~
~earl masacayan~
~gelo lecaros~
~java lee~
~jerica riego~
~jiro tamase~
~joice carrido~
~jose tanjuan~
~jowee corrales~
~julianne alberto~
~kat silva~
~katrina perez~
~liana colobong~
~mandy mangubat~
~merie clarete~
~michelle kim inot~
~mika lopue~
~mike esguerra~
~nancy bansil~
~paulene bucag~
~tessa tamase~

~ et. al. ~
~anton silver~
~bianca gonzales~
~jim paredes~
~neil gaiman~

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~ about.. ~

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.. sorry for being a lazy b*tch. lol.

I'm stuck in a different time zone as of the moment. ;)

--isabel--atebel--isa--bel--bei--

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~ wishing on a star ~

reason
happiness :)
know and do what I really want
not be afraid
a music box :)
scream out loud
graduate :p

Credits
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udub
Thank You! :)

~ rants :p ~

i've written on my journal recently already so i think i've unloaded some of the things which i don't think would be such a good idea to blog about. hahaha. thoughts, after all, may both be classified as assets or liabilities. :P (oooh, someone's missing finance and accounting concepts, WAHAHAHA. i am such a nerd -_- hmmmm..)

anyway, i was just thinking a while ago about strangers. i'm pretty sure we've all had our fair share of small talks with strangers..people asking for directions, a middle aged woman who just happened to smile at you and strike a conversation, or a taxi driver who's driving you somewhere late at night and just happened to talk about his 2 kids who are smart and studying at Philippine Science High School (wow :p).

hmmm..what's my point? well it's just that sometimes, there is this weird sense of comfort talking to a stranger about what's going on with you. i dunno, maybe it's because this certain stranger knows nothing about you..your background or any of the shit you've done and gone through. that means this stranger would have nothing against you and you would have nothing against him/her. it's similar to confession for Catholics i guess. hmmmm.

anyway, yeah, i guess i could rant to a stranger about everything there is to rant about my life..that'll be fun coz well i wouldn't really care if (s)he'll listen or not..or absorb what i will say or what not. but then again, if he or she knows nothing about me, then what's the point? we both will just be wasting our time. hahaha.

i'd rather rant to a good friend instead, i guess. :D

*****

spent my afternoon yesterday with ivan and kuya jeff (waaah, glenna! huhuhu). i just finished cleaning the apartment when ivan suddenly texts me that they'll be picking me up in 10 mins.. imagine that. hahaha. but i'm really thankful that they saved me from an otherwise boring afternoon here at the apartment. hehe. thanks a million to kuya for dinner (kahit nakakaumay ang ice cream, haha!) and coffee..yey! grabe, lagi ako napapatingin kay kuya jeff coz i can't believe it's been what 3 or 4 years since nag didinner out kami nila glenna (froshies pa kami nun at tamo, graduate na ako!! haha!) and there we were again..wala nga lang si glenna.. :( hayy. nakakamiss!! :D. of course, thanks to ivan for being the driver. hahaha. thanks for the company, kwentuhan, kulitan, picturan at ang nakakalokong mga sagutan niyo sa car, during dinner and during coffee :) love it! hehe. mushy much but you know i love you both. :D SALAMAT. next time ulit! :)

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i played chaperon/ third wheel all afternoon..i was with my sister chi and my friend (her boyfriend) allan. hahaha :D but i dunno, i didn't really feel i was a third wheel even though i obviously was..hahaha! maybe i was just really happy for him and for her that they were really happy together. after all the awkward moments early this year, it'll boil down to she's my sister, he's my friend..they're together..i'm happy for them..and i'll love them both whenever and whatever. hehe.

okay, kill the mushy-ness. hahaha! masyado nang madami.

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hmmm..sorry for what i did the other day..i think it was funny and stupid of me but it was still wrong. hahaha. hayy. i'm doing my best but you're kinda making it difficult. but hey, this is a challenge. we'll see what happens :P

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to my friend who is having "heart problems" right now (hehe, mahuhuli ka lalo pag nagreact ka :P) chill lang. it's hard to tell you what to do coz you already have your mindset on things. i think i'd rather listen to you than give you advice for now. mahirap magadvice pag hindi mo alam ang whole story. and of course, in the end, what ever i tell you, you'd still have to be the one to decide..and you will be the one who'd decide. hehehe :)

if it were me though, i'd try my best to live the moment and just be happy at how things are and how lucky you are to be in the position you are right now. but of course, i'm not you, right?

;-) chill!

*****

friday. wah. hay. too soon? ewan. praying
. :)


~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, October 29, 2008,7:35 PM

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~ caught me. :) ~

we were riding the jeep home earlier this afternoon.
i was looking outside and thinking..

then mom caught me smiling at myself. hehe.

"eh alangan naman sumimangot ako."

i think that was just my reflex excuse.
truth is, even if i don't really want to admit it,
i'm starting to be amused.. :)

enough for me to smile at myself just like that.

hehe :) ewan.


~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, October 26, 2008,10:40 AM

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~ note to self. ~

DON'T be confused..not be afraid.
STOP thinking too much.
SMILE and mean it..

and LIVE the moment =)


~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, October 25, 2008,9:05 PM

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~ what girls like from their guy :P ~

...daw. hehehe.

[words in things like these are from me :P hahaha! i guess this is a good enough list but i think guys should really give the effort to find out what their girls really want. hehe. :D]

1. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.
[uhh..depende naman sa inyong dalawa yun :) on the part of the girl, if she's uncomfortable, she should tell her guy din :) but all i'm saying is talkshit coz i wouldn't know :)) ]

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
[awww..yeah, that's sweet :) ]

3. Hug her from behind - the sweetest thing
[ ABA, may naalala ako dito. hahaha! :P ]

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up.
[wag naman sobrang dami. it'll be weird. haha :P ]

5. Wrestle with her
[baka magkasakitan kayo :))]

6. Don't go hang out with you ex when shes not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.
[no further explanation necessary. hehehe :P]

7. If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over andhug her and kiss her.... let her know she's yours and they aren't.
[ :D ]

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"..and not just at night after you've already been out with other girls.

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
[ it's the right thing to do :P ]

10. Play with her hair.
[ wag mo naman guluhin noh :P ]

11. Pick her up
[nadapa ba siya? corny! hehe. but yep, agree with this one :P]

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.

13. Make her laugh, if you can make her laugh, you can make her do anything.
[anything..? hahaha! but laughing is good :) ]

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
[awwww <3 ]

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
[timing naman! baka lalong magalit :)) hahahahha!]

16. If you care about her, then tell her
[ :") ]

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things:
a stuffed animal or pillow (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep),
jewelry (she'll treasure it forever),
and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed).

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
[may naalala ako. hmmm :P]

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
[cheesy pero sweet hahaha!]

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21. Kiss her in the rain
[baka magkasakit kayo. hahaha]

22. Kiss her just for the heck of it
[but you should ALWAYS mean it. :) ]

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if it's simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER. it's the thought that counts.
[ :D ]

25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
[haha, i'm weird but mas gusto ko ata sabihin niya kung ayaw niya para sabay namin hanapin kung anu gusto niya :P ewan.]

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello. - =)
[yeah..kahit mabilis lang :) ]

27. Give her what she wants
[spoiled?]

28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
[ yeah.. :) ]

29. Tell her shes beautiful, she needs to know her striving is working.

30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and you should be free to hang with your girl friend all the time

31. If u care about her...SHOW her!
[do it every way you can :D]


~ isabel ~ posted @
,8:13 PM

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~ ... :D ~

first up, i had a really great time last night. i was so happy to see my 6+1 family again (well, some of us who made it :-| mmm). I REALLY MISSED YOU GUYS..kahit na parang hindi pa naman ganun ka tagal tayo hindi nagkikita, hahaha! we still weren't complete but well, at least there's something to look forward to. ;)

no pics yet. haha! konti lang sobra kasi wala kami cams. i'll post them later. :P

the night @ GB3:
-dinner at Capricciosa (quite pricey for my taste but good service and yummy!! :D);
-office-life stories from the employed people;
-homo talks and adult humor (LAUGHTRIP!! at ang ingay namin di b ba..hahaha!);
-"YELLOW!!" and the Sesame Street character (HAHAHA! baaaad sobra!);
-Gelato stop-over :) ;
-movie: High School Musical 3 (not bad..it was fun at na-senti ako sa last part :P pero ang INGAY namin at tawa kami ng tawa sa cheesy scenes!! :)) too bad amelie had to go early. thanks dear ah and i hope you're ok :) );
-bonding time with paulene (thanks dear! i reaaaaalllly missed you peebs! at last you made it at present ka :)) too bad kulang oras sa kwentuhan coz i had to go home already. next time ah!! :P)

to amelie and dom, GRABE! thanks for the (shocking) surprise. hahahahaha! promise babawi kami ni paulene sa inyo. GRABE talaga. hahaha!

amelie, dom, paulene: thank you a million times and more for the fun night. hahaha. next time ulit!!

ooooh, of course, thank you to jowee for showing up after dinner even if she was with her mom. the 6+1 get-together was supposedly for her coz she's leaving for a while..but siyempre, family first (unspoken rule ata yan sa atin eh, haha!) but we pushed through with it anyway.. :) good luck and God bless jowee!! :D thanks for stopping by kahit mabilis lang.

oooh, we saw xavier during dinner too, haha! thanks for stoppin by, xave. :P

till next time!! :D



~ isabel ~ posted @
,4:59 AM

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~ "ending it all" and "going nuts" ~

my dad and i had this discussion once about suicide (nakalimutan ko na kung bakit..nagpplano ata ako so sinabi ko sa kanya yung plan ko haha :P joke). i think i was asking for arguments for and against suicide (so i guess may debate? uhh..can't really remember :P). i sort of remember in a part of our conversation that suicide is a form of escape coz "hindi mo na kaya yung mga nangyayari at pagod ka na at sawa ka na sa mundo at buhay mo...blah blah blah."

that kind of reasoning, according to dad, was a bit weak. if things were really out of your control and you really couldn't bear it all, you wouldn't need suicide..coz you'll go insane anyway.. (hehe) that's your real ticket to escape without banning yourself from heaven (for those who believe, anyway)..
suicide is (i guess) just a lame excuse and a quick exit for cowards. i dunno.

personally, i'm not suicide fan (haha) and i can't see why some resort to it, but i'm not to judge those who've thought of it or have tried or even committed it. it really depends on the situation..what can i say?

so now i'm thinking what if the person went insane THEN committed suicide? panu yun? haha. wah, kung anu anu na naiisip ko. hehehe. i might be the one who's insane. hahaha :P

i don't even know if i made any sense or if the conversation i talked about earlier even happened. hahaha. i read something from sir dennis so that may have been the cause of this. hehe.

go here: http://dennisap.multiply.com/journal/item/103/Another_Deep_Thought_from_Jack_Handey

if you wanna see.

oh, just another quick thought about insanity. i was waiting for a bus the other day when there was this gay person screaming and walking briskly towards me from my left. so of course my reflex reaction was to look at uhhhm..her. I got really scared coz when she was about a feet from me, she looked at me straight in the eye (shivers) and raised her arm as if she was going to smack me. she was talking non stop saying, "ikaw babae ka walang hiya ka..blah blah blah.." but she just passed right through me then continued walking while all the people there watched her. i wonder what happened to her. i wonder what things could actually trigger insanity and make you a certified BALIW.
(ooooh, psychology. i wish :P)

anyway, wala lang.
obviously bored..bumming..unemployed..jobless..lahat na. hahahaha ;-)

smile!


~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, October 24, 2008,9:53 AM

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~ this is me..my name, at least :P ~

sandy gave the link to me. thanks dear. alam ko naman naiisip mo ako palagi HAHAHA. joke! but it was sweet of you :Dquite believable, i think. haha. you guys be the judge. ;-)

What Isabel Means
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.


~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, October 23, 2008,9:37 AM

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~ falling for.. ~

IT again. after all this time, i'd still surrender to it. hayy.

hayy. i've been listening to piano music a lot again recently.
thanks to twilight :P
(yeah, apparently i've joined the bandwagon and it isn't half bad :P)
i might be falling in love with it again..after all these years.. :D

super miss it. it gives me a sense of calm and comfort.
darn. i'd really love to play again. how i wish i (still) could.

hayyy.
well, i'd have to settle with listening for now :P

anyhoo, i'm sooo looking forward to the movie soundtrack!!!
especially Robert's composition and Bella's Lullaby
eeeeek :)

give me one and i'll love you for eternity. hahaha ;)


~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, October 19, 2008,8:22 PM

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~ ang flirt mo! :P haha! ~

got this from che :P

the ones in [...] are my own. hahaha :P

FLIRTING 101 :D

How girls flirt:
1.She calls you by your full name, not just a nick name. [effort much? :P no thanks]
2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you say something funny. [eh baka naman ganun lang talaga siya..?]
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.
5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with a big smile on her face. [NGEK. :P]
6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out with seemingly interested. [siguro..? uhm, looking out for competition i guess? haha]
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your friends and she is almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.
9. You catch her staring at you. [so that means you're staring back! hulihan kayo :)) ]
10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on you. [no to the make up part :P that's just weird..]
11. Her friends outside of school and in school know about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number and address. ( stalker much? ) [baka naman close kayo :P]
13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as much as possible [most likely. :) ]


How guys flirt:
1. He stares at you alot. [scary..haha!]
2. He hits you alot. [ouch? haha. baka naman lambing lang :P]
3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to start a converstaion with you
4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mum that day she picked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Brown Sugar" with you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to go alone.
6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets hurt in the process [hmmm..]
7. His voice gets softer when ever you two talk. [nababakla? hahaha. joke :P]
8. You hung up on him. He called you back. [how sweet :P]
9. You were invited by him to a group outing.
10. He called you to talk about nothing at all. [haha. pwede.]
11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do laugh PRETTY LOUD. Which makes you laugh even harder...
12. He remembers little things you mention in casual conversation [i'd find that sweet..impressive even, if ever :P]
13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes. [naks! kilig :)) ]
14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair, face, thighs, KNEES, etc.) [basta daw wag offensive :P]


~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, October 18, 2008,8:19 PM

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~ eeeeh naman kasiii. ~

hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ako..
argh!
haaaaaaaaaayyyy naku.

sumasakit ulo ko. takteng yan.


kasi naman eh. naman naman naman.

hindi ko na alam. para akong bata.
ay hindi, mali pala. hindi ako parang bata.
hindi ko alam kung parang anu ako.


buti na lang...hmmmmmm.
salamat. hayy.


i'm sure this doesn't make any sense.
doesn't make sense to me either.
distract me please.
i hate this. naiinis ako.



~ isabel ~ posted @
,1:34 PM

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~ survey to pass time ~

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
- protected." (The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People) :P
2. Stretch your right arm out as far as you can. What's there?
- my mug, table centerpiece
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
- news (the other day pa while waiting for my interview. :P)
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
- 3:45
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
- 3:49
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
- electric fan to my left
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
- yesterday to go to a job interview.
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
- friendster and ym (who was online :P)
9. What are you wearing?
- shorts and scrubs (yung pang doctor, haha! this one's old na :P)
10. Did you dream last night?
- yep.. ;)
11. When did you last laugh?
- early this morning? but it was more of a subtle laugh lang. :P
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
- uhhh..paint? hahaha :P
13. Seen anything weird lately?
- 2 guys going out of the CR..(see previous post :P)
14. What do you think of this quiz?
- nothing. i'm just bored. :P
15. What is the last film you saw?
- buried alive! HAHAHA. crap. :P
16.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
- invest some of it..(by next week when the markets will be, i assume, low again. haha buying time! :P), a house, car, a farm somewhere and invest some more :P
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
- hmmm. i...take a long time to answer questions like that. :P hahaha
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
- i'll get back to you on that. :P
19. Do you like to dance?
- not really. haha. when i'm drunk siguro :)) and that doesn't happen often. :P
20. George Bush:
- is about to be replaced :P hahaha!
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
- isabel din (?) i don't know. i'll look at her and think of a name that suits her :)
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
- something "handsome sounding" :)) kidding. same, i'll look at him then think of one :D
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
- yes. part of my medium-term plans...hopefully :)
24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?
- i probably won't be able to speak. but i guess, he'll already know the things i wanna say :)


~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, October 16, 2008,11:50 AM

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~ babbles for the week :D ~

last monday while i was at makati waiting for a job interview after lunch, i stopped by at a fastfood to satisfy some cravings for dessert (yeah, baaad for me, i know..but read on.. ) since i was going to an interview later on, i decided to stop by the comfort room to freshen up a bit (you know how it is at makati especially if you commute and walk around ). when i twisted the door handle, it was locked so i decided to wait. a few seconds after a young man opened the door. i was startled coz he appeared to be talking to someone who was inside with him. then he said,

"Oy brad, may gagamit ata..."

so i went (in my head), "OKAY. WOW. ayoko na ata mag dessert."

hehehe. hindi na pala tayo ganun ka-discreet ngayon. may pagsasabi pa ng BRAD ah. well at least they were pretty discreet in appearance. not to judge or anything but sana man lang hindi sa public place, di ba? get a room, guys (or whatever you'd like to call yourselves) :P

*****

so this is what it feels like to not have allowance (meaning the allowance i regularly had when i was still going to school ). i'm not complaining, i mean i'm lucky to be given what i am given but it's pretty hard to budget stuff even if i only go around doing interviews. medyo mahal na rin kasi pamasahe lalo na pag hindi ko alam kung panu mag-commute going to the place. just one of the many things pushing me to work (and earn for myself) already. i think my mind's already set in doing just that. i dunno about my heart though but i know i have to work soon. hehehe. i think i have a pretty good idea what i want to do for now (or at least what i don't want to do :P) Lord help me.

hayy, wish me luck guys!

*****

i was with friends and we were talking about random things i don't remember. the guy approached us and asked to talk to me for a while and i agreed. my friend and i walked around the area neither of us saying anything. i watched the weird expression on his face and somehow i already had an idea what this was all about.

we stopped to rest against this white wall. we still weren't talking. he was at my left..and he still had that weird expression on his face. we saw the girl from afar. i knew she saw us but she acted as if she didn't and went on with her business.

"o, bakit bigla mo naman akong kinakausap ngayon? nakakagulat naman."

i knew he tried to answer my question but nothing came out of him. he looked toward her direction again then bowed his head for a while.

"uy, anu ba meron? anu ba nangyayari sa iyo?"

he tried looking away at the other direction. i was shocked. was he actually crying? i've never ever seen this guy cry and here he was, trying to hide his tears from me. i was clueless but i waited for him to say something...and he did.

"ayoko na ng ganito. gusto ko na maging okay ulit."

"eh ikaw lang naman inaantay niya eh. i mean okay na kayo pareho di ba? graduate na nga tayo eh. hindi na nga lang kayo nag-uusap. gusto nga niya sana maayos toh bago tayo umalis eh feel niya parang impossible. kasi nga hindi na kayo nag-uusap. or rather hindi mo siya kinakausap. hmmm. ayun," i answered. he was still crying and i was still weirded out by everything.

"kaya nga ako nandito di ba? ayoko na talaga ng gulo eh," he said.

"wala naman gulo ah. hmmm. well, ikaw bahala. puntahan ko lang sila dun. bahala ka na kung anu gusto mo gawin."

then i left him there by the white wall and went towards the girl. i was just about to tell her what happened when the guy suddenly runs toward us and hugs the girl (talk about drama eh?). he kept saying he was sorry over and over. i couldn't believe it was happening but i was really happy it was. both of them were crying, trying to explain and saying sorry at the same time, and everyone around us was shocked.

after 3 years, finally BATI NA SILA.

i still couldn't believe it.

...i guess i had good reason not to
coz a while later i woke up.

everything was a dream.

and i thought, "kaya pala ang drama bigla ni guy, joketime lang pala lahat."

hayy. wala lang. sayang.


~ isabel ~ posted @
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~ maybe ~

<3

maybe.. :)


~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, October 15, 2008,4:00 PM

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~ 4 1/2 ~

pages.

that's how long my latest journal entry was. i wasn't even supposed to be writing some of what i wrote down. crap! haha. stupid me. re-reading it makes me wanna burn it up.
hayy, anyway, let it be. kung anu man, eh di ayun. bala na. bala na. :P

still on with the jobhunt. doing ok though. just tired. :P i need a drink..haha! :D libre naman dyan! hahaha!

while riding on a bus home the other day, i typed this down on my phone.

"I almost cried a while ago while listening to Yiruma's River Flows in You. It wasn't because I thought of Edward Cullen or Bella Swan or my future piano-playing BF (asa pa ako :P hahaha!). I remembered the times when I still played the piano...and of course, my beloved piano teacher (who, despite all the times I was scared of her and the times she made me cry, I will always hold dearly in my heart) Teacher Christine. I remember the day I stopped my lessons altogether. We didn't have any money for it anymore (the Darker days, I'd like to call them..) so I just stopped. Naiiyak ako pag naaalala ko yun. I was getting good at playing...better...then POOF! Wala na. :( I doubt if I can even play a decent melody now since I don't have practice (which means I may not be able to read notes anymore..waaah). It's been more than a year now since I dabbled into those ebony and ivory keys. I REALLY MISS IT BADLY. How I wish I could've continued..but I guess Someone's got other plans for me.."

In connection, if ever I have a family and I have a son, I hope he'd want to play to piano...(or at least be musically inclined. :P) SUPER plus points kasi if a guy can "dazzle" me while playing the piano. I could only wish :) they're a vanishing breed. :))

Ay...kahit mayaman na guy na lang pala, ok na ako.
So I can have a music room with all the instruments I want :))

smile! :)



~ isabel ~ posted @
Tuesday, October 14, 2008,2:55 PM

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~ buhay estudyante :P ~

grabbed from sha.. :P thanks ah!

mamimiss ko ang pagiging student ng sobra.
especially the tambay times..haha! ;)
lahat ata toh na-experience ko na.
emphasis sa # 10 and 13..HAHAHA! JOKE LANG!
enjoy! :D

1. Habang ngqquiz...



2. Kapag dinismiss na ng prof. Early dismissal!




3. Habang nag aaral



4.Pagtanggap ng quiz



5.Pag smart kang sumagot...




6.Pag nasuspend ang pasok dahil sa bagyo

7.Dinibdib mo ang pag-aaral tapos wala naman pala quiz



8.Pag lumabas na mga results ng grades...

9.pag nanghihinayang ka sa one point para pumasa


10.pag binati ka ng crush mo. :))




11. pag gusto mong maghiganti sa kaaway mo.. :))



12 pag magcucut ka ng class.


13.pag kausap mo ang crush mo.



14.natambakan ka ng homeworks at mukang la ka na pag-asa matapos un



15.pag di mo alam paano sagutan yung quiz.



16. no choice ka kundi magstairs




17.la ka na maintindihan sa pinagsasabi ng prof..





18.pag umaasang magbibigay ng plus..




19.para pumasa ka..







20.pag feeling mo binigay mo na best mo pero di pa rin sapat :))



21.giniginaw ka. At walang gustong magpahiram ng jacket sayo. :))


22.pagkatapos ng exam..




23.pagkatapos ng lunch.



24.boring ang prof..



25.pag uwian na


~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, October 01, 2008,8:27 PM

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