~ love-hate relationship ~
yipee! hayy. yey! hmm..
a lot is gonna happen yet again.
well, we'll see! :)
welcome december 08! :P
~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, November 30, 2008,8:08 PM
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we hold our breath...forget..the things we swore we meant.
you did it on purpose.. but i guess it's for me to learn things the hard(er) way.
still wondering, though.
argh that *m*** of yours. and argh me for (still) surrendering. :P
who would've thought i'd get the chance? hahaha.
when?
i don't have anything to say about it anymore. :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, November 26, 2008,8:37 PM
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i claim that i'm not bitter but why do i keep repeating..everything?
will it work out? only time will tell, i guess. i'll pray..
what the heck happened? i really wanna know..
will i ever learn?
what's gonna happen now? hayy..
why can't you just..?
why can't i just stop being emo and sleep already?
hahaha. :P
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, November 20, 2008,7:41 PM
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~ you never really can tell, eh? ~
anyway, i'm still bored. but i'm really excited for twilight. i hope it's good.
still no job. chillin. wanna go back to manila next week. i have nothing else to do here in the province. hehehe. bahala na
hope everyone's well. :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
,6:45 PM
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that's all i'm hearing now..together with some frogs and crickets outside and my mom's breathing while sleeping beside me. hehehe :P
..and so i guess all is well.. :) enough said for now..but i'm glad and grateful.
anyway, it's been less than a week but i feel like it's been sooo long. life in the province really is slow..especially when you have literally nothing to do (and have no cash at that, haha!). and the weather is soooo cool (ang sarap matulog! takte! hahaha)..signaling that Christmas is really near..oh, and that other thing that i don't wanna think about right now..hehehe.
sometimes, i can't help but wonder why... :)
hay..let it be.
oh btw, anybody got a plurk account?
add me up!
isabel458
hehehe! (thanks allie!)
:)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, November 19, 2008,3:49 PM
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friday was supposed to be a good day. until i screwed up that night and struck again. strike 2 na ito, but it felt like a stike 3..i'm out. this time, leche. mali talaga ang mga nangyari.
takteng yan. napakatangakongbata at napaka immature ko. galeng.
i'm making a big fuss out of this, true. but only because it was done in bad taste. VERY.
pangit ang dating. pangit talaga. :(
weird.. pero ako ata ang hindi makapagpatawad sa sarili ko.
argh. ang tanga, tanga, tanga. :(
naman kasi.
~ isabel ~ posted @
Sunday, November 16, 2008,4:45 PM
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~ value and frustration ~
i can't help it though..so fuck off if you're not here to understand.
well, try as you might to understand, you won't anyway. haha.
you'll realize that after you've read this. IF you have the patience to read. :P
i couldn't understand why things have turned out the way they are now.
i don't think i did anything wrong for these things to happen.
but maybe...maybe i didn't listen when everyone was already warning me about it.
maybe i turned to deaf ears because my eyes and my heart did not see nor feel what they had kept hammering to my ear.
maybe i had invested so much in something that i valued but would eventually just...evaporate.
i am frustrated. if one knows of the details of this story, he or she may raise an eyebrow at me and doubt what i say...because frankly, it may seem like something else. but no. do not misinterpret. what i say goes and i stand by that. it's just that when you value something very much..(as it had given you enough reason for you to value it) it frustrates you if it does not turn out the way you had thought it once was.
anyway, yes..how immature..how selfish.
but hey, i can't always be the one to understand right?
but at least, even if my understanding would cease,
i would still stay and be there..whatever 'be there' should mean.
haha, i just remembered. a friend told me i had some talent in saying things i wanted to say (expressing what i felt, i guess) but not really saying anything at all. what do you think?
sometimes i wish i was just frank and straight-forward. 
anyway, back to reality.. smile guys 
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, November 13, 2008,6:15 AM
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...word of the day!! hahaha! maraming salamat, sissy!
at long last natuloy ang coffee natin. yehey!
nag "celebrate" kami ni patty ng birthday ni jepoi ng wala siya dito 
o di ba? bongga! hahaha!
(isusunod ko na lang yung pics. hindi ko pa ma-upload eh 
)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEP! 
SUPER MISS KA NA NI PATTY!!
(as if naman kailangan ko pa sabihin ito, di ba?)
miss ka na namin!!
balik na!! hehehe! ingat diyan!!
anyway, went to fort this morning for an exam with...a bank.
was with gelo (ikaw na ang jobhunt buddy ko.. hahaha!) and joan.
i hope it'll give me more options..God-willing.
afternoon.. spent roaming around glorietta.
then patty came from an interview and we had coffee and some catching up..konting kamustahan at madaming chismis. joke! 
salamat patty!! hehehe! colorful ba?
colorful din naman yung iyo. bawal tumaggi.
salamat salamat. super thankful ako sa inyo ni jepoi..super. 
anyway, ma-touch naman kayong dalawa!! hehehe!
anyway, that was my day..
hope it's a good week ahead for everyone
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, November 10, 2008,4:37 PM
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make me happy...
give me a twilight soundtrack... 
pretty please? hahaha!
awww, dang! i really, REALLY want one. hayy.
can't wait for the movie!! wiiih!! lapit na! 
~ isabel ~ posted @
,3:47 PM
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just wondering..
when will you ever be truly honest to yourself and quit the "i'm too afraid" drama?
you're almost done with being a teen (stop denying it!!) and you still can't do things right.
when will you ever learn?
oh, and i thought you were planning to get a job before year end?
where is the product of that promise?
oh and that other thing you promised?
and the other promises that you've forgotten to keep?
don't feel sorry for yourself. that's the worst way to deal with this.
bettter to just wake up, smell the coffee and get a move on..
and don't forget to smile.
~ isabel ~ posted @
Saturday, November 08, 2008,8:57 PM
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~ recovery and farewell ~
akala ko kasi...erm..
well, muntik na ata kasi...
eh, anyway, basta okay na ako! buti na lang!!
hay. :)
salamat na rin at nangyari ang mga nangyari. ;-)
back to business! hahaha :P
*****
what a symbolic way of relaying the message..
everything = erased
start over.
*sigh* :D
time to move on to better things :P
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, November 07, 2008,6:04 AM
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