~ The Tree, The Leaf and The Wind.. (and some other elements) :P ~
Before anything else..
It's late (at least for me, it is) but I can't help but stay up and listen to the rain.. It's almost noon and it's been pouring since I got out of the office.
I have this love-hate thing about rain. It's so difficult to commute when it's raining especially when it's REALLY pouring down on you. But when it's raining lightly (not just drizzling but not pouring either) there's something calming about it that you wouldn't mind walking and getting a little drenched while you do (okay, maybe not for some coz of acid rain...ahh, city life :P).
I just love-hate the rain. :)
Anyway, still hearing the raindrops outside my window as I type. I am suddenly reminded of the rain scene from The Classic (no spoilers for those who haven't seen it). I soo love that movie. Okay, getting mushy, sorry :P
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I got this from Amelie
(I miss you and chismis-over-coffee sessions! hehe.. Thanks for calling this morning :P).
I think I already sent this to a bunch of people but I still wanted to re-post it so here it goes. Some thoughts about it after.. :)
The Tree, The Leaf and The Wind
TREE
People call me "Tree".
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I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just an ordinary girl.
I liked her. I really liked her.
I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. My reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together, all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her. I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately and I didn't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, I made her accompany me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actress and me a demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled and said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I didn't want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something and watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once a time when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character, she's not the type that will start off a fight. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and ignored her feelings then walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing and joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too. When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break-up. Coincidentally, she had something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the school.
I didn't show her my heartache, just smiles and best wishes. Once I reached home, I couldn't breathe. Tears rolled and I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who didn't acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I received a text message from her. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask her to stay ..."
LEAF
People call me "Leaf".
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During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learned a feeling I never should've learned - jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him and I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? If he really loves me, why didn't he make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can
never figure out.
You can't expect from a girl like me to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me too. And because of this, I waited for him.
Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years. At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me.
He's like the cool and gentle Wind, trying to blow off a Leaf from a Tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this Wind a small footing in my heart. I know the Wind will bring the Leaf to a better land.
Finally, Leaf left the Tree, but the Tree only smiled and didn't ask the Leaf to stay.
"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask her to stay..."
WIND
People call me "Wind".
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This is because I like a girl called "Leaf". Because she's so dependent on the Tree, I have to be a gust Wind, a wind that will blow her away.
I first met her a month after I transferred to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled at her, took out a note and gave it to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled, and accepted the note.
The day after, she appeared, passed me a note and left. "Leaf's heart is too heavy and the Wind couldn't blow her away".
"It's not that Leaf's heart is too heavy. It's simply because Leaf never wants to leave the Tree". I replied to her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me and accept my presents and phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day, I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every single time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never gave up. If I'm really decided for her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over.
I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will always try to change the topic, I still bear a small ray of hope deep within me that she will agree to be my girlfriend. And so I asked her again.
I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"
"I'm nodding my head", she said.
"Huh?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head", she replied loudly.
I hung up the phone, quickly changed, took a taxi and rushed to her place. My hands were trembling when I pressed the doorbell.
I hugged her tightly as she opened the door.
"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask her to stay..."
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Bittersweet.
I felt a little bad for Tree maybe because what he wanted what right under his nose but he thought he was better off with someone else. Pride? I guess.. But it could also be because the Leaf was so conveniently there all the time that he didn't really feel the need to do anything about it.
(What's so special about that particular leaf anyhow? Others would eventually grow, right? :P)
As for Leaf, well, she chose to be in that position, waiting in vain for Tree to 'get to his senses'. Stupid? Nah, not really. Maybe I should introduce Leaf to Boy-Next-Door or Meantime Boy (hehe) but that's another story altogether. Lucky her, the Wind came along just in time.. I have some reservations about that but I'll talk about it later.
Wind, wind, wind.. I wonder what he wrote down in first note to Leaf.. :) Nice touch with the 'blow her away' part. I kinda found that funny :D Wind took and is taking a big risk with taking Leaf, but I applaud him for his pursuit and his perseverance.
I was just thinking... so Wind took Leaf away from Tree. What happens after that? Is the Wind strong enough to keep Leaf in flight or will he eventually lose his strength and abandon Leaf after sometime? Hmmm.. but I guess like what Leaf said, the Wind would eventually 'bring her to a better land.'
What about the other elements that come into play? Sun? Rain? Snow? Hahaha, too much? :P
So, was Leaf's departure because of Wind's pursuit or because the Tree didn't ask her to stay...? A mix of both for me.
Oh well, like what I always say, it all still depends on a lot of things. ;-)
Anyway, was just bored and still didn't review SEC Filings as I promised (Boo me).
The rain's gone now and I have to sleep. :-) Later.
Smile! :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, April 30, 2009,11:55 PM
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..and i am back in the city. hehe. :P wala lang.
anyhoo, it was a really great weekend, thanks to Kuya Jeff's 24th birthday celebration. got to see old friends again and it was a lot of fun. :D i was supposed to post pictures but multiply's effin down or something. can't open my site. :( anyhoo, on other things, I got to rest last Sunday (slept all day, haha!) so ready again for another week :) woohoo.. oh, really had fun watching Cinema One movies yesterday.. John Lloyd!! :)) HAHAHA.
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just some american idol shiz.. :P i absolutely melt for Kris Allen (HEHE :"> ). I soooo love him! his voice, his looks.. and I gotta tell you, he really has talent (guitars + piano + vocal = me melting :P). loved his rendition of She Works Hard for Her Money last week. hayyy... his wife is so damn lucky to have him!! i'm not saying he'd be the next AI (I kinda bet it's gonna be Adam, who's really great as well :P) but whatever happens, i'm sure imma support Kris and his career! :D hehehe. GO KRIS ALLEN! :D
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:) well, after everything, i still say that i am so not ready. haha. who's in a hurry, anyway? but then again, like what a friend said, it's our crucial decade, bwahahaha. get it? :PLabels: a day in my life, paint me a picture, reality bites
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, April 27, 2009,3:25 PM
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~ butterflies and firsts.. ~
i was even mentioned in marvin's email. haha. embarrassing. :))
anyhoo, TGIF!! although i'm really sad coz i can't go out with my high school friends later for dinner. :( have a call coming up later. hayy. oh well.. sacrifices.
oh, and i'm broke too. got my last pay too damn early coz of Holy Week and spent almost everything already. tsk tsk tsk. :(
(okay, i just used damn and holy in one sentence. bless my soul :P)
anyhoo, calls starting next week. hayy. i've got butterflies all over me. :-|Labels: a day in my life, extraordinarily ordinary but not really, hoping, paint me a picture, smiles, thankful, thoughts
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, April 24, 2009,6:38 PM
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I couldn't be more thankful for the weekend that has passed. :D
To paulene who insisted on going to Batangas this weekend, thanks dear. Had a blast! Feeling bakasyonista tuloy ako. hahaha.
Time to plan for the next one! :D Sama na ang buong 6+1! :))
Ok, back to reality. Lord help the team. hahaha.
Kaya naman ito! :D GO GO GO!! :DLabels: a day in my life, extraordinarily ordinary but not really, paint me a picture
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, April 20, 2009,6:07 PM
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I'm actually torn because as this week ends, the next week draws nearer... and I'm dreading that. :))
Kaya dapat magpakasaya na sa weekend. hehehe.
Last night wasn't the best of nights.. I got rattled and I sucked... add up the fact that I'm sort of emotionally and physically vulnerable (yeah, it's that time of the month) but oh well, better days (or nights) ahead.
I should get going.. :D byee!
~ isabel ~ posted @
Friday, April 17, 2009,8:08 PM
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There's really something fascinating about ranting to an uncertain audience.
That's why...after a long while, I'm back to Blogger blogging again, using my Blogger dashboard to make posts, that is.. ;)
I'm not so sure though if my Blogger posts are automatically posted to my Multiply account (coz when I blog stuff at Multiply, it shows up here.)
My blog sucks eggs though. Too lazy to change the URL and the layout.. (and how I wish I was a Photoshop guru.. huhu)..not even a header in place! jeez..
I should be reviewing for my mock call session later, but here i am. typing away.
Be back when something else happens. later! :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, April 16, 2009,6:36 PM
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the word says it all.
long weekend but dreading next week.
hmmmmm.
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, April 08, 2009,2:50 PM
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there is wisdom in silence, i suppose..
but i think it is even wiser to know when it's the right time to speak up :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, April 01, 2009,2:25 PM
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