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You know the feeling when you really REALLY wanna say something but you know you really REALLY can't? I'm sure all of us have gone through this uneasy feeling.. Sometimes you end up saying it anyway, either to someone who's totally not involved in the situation, someone who cares for it and is mature enough for it, or to the worst person ever who ends up blabbing everything to everyone. Number 3 sucks right?
Since you have limited chances of getting it "right" from the choices above, I suggest you grab a pen and paper then write down what you wanna say and how you wanna say it. Once you're done, fold the paper then tear it into as many pieces as you can. After you're done, pick random trash cans to dump those pieces. While you're doing all those, I'm pretty sure you'll get over whatever it was that was bothering you.
There ARE times when it's best to let it out to another person. One time when I stepped into the ladies room somewhere, I saw this girl talking to another girl. Girl A was a little teary-eyed while Girl B was trying to comfort her. In the end, it turns out they're complete strangers to one another (and yes, I was the curious eavesdropper. hehe :P).
If you're lucky, open-minded friends and family members would do good during these situations too.
Oh, I have another suggestion. Type it down/blog about it (or how you feel about it). After you're done, it's either you push the "private" button, or push Backspace for about 10 to 15 seconds..
..Or just publish the note anyway then move on. :)
~ isabel ~ posted @
Thursday, July 30, 2009,9:15 PM
I have a Tropicana Twister - Orange beside me as I type this. I like it a lot and it's included in the beverages I normally drink besides Fit & Right, Pineapple Juice, Iced Tea and good old Water, alcoholic drinks on the side of course, HAHA.
Before this turns into an advertisement, I just wanted to share my silly observation regarding the drink, particularly the Orange-flavored one without the pulp (hahaha!). It's just that I've noticed that all the bottles I buy are somehow "deformed" and when I check out other stocks, all of them are (at least the ones I've seen.. hehe).
I have a theory about all this... :P
Call me weird but I think they (manufacturers/distributor
s or those responsible) are doing this on purpose so that people will try and buy some other flavor other than Orange..
As a customer, I do care for presentation, and seeing flaws on the packaging makes me think twice about buying. In this case however, I think it's (the dent on the bottles) some sort of strategy coz maybe they want people to try out the other flavors. You know, browse around the shelf, get the bottle, see the dent, get a new one, see a dent still, think of getting another flavor, maybe get another flavor (or settle for the deformed one) and off you go..
(I'm personally weirded out by that Melon Jasmine thingy.. or something like that, I'm not really sure.. :P).
Also, there was one time when my mom and brother were shopping at the grocery and there were no more stocks of Orange left on the shelf. My brother asked the store personnel about it and off he went to get a fresh box from storage. Sure, maybe they really ran out of stock on the shelves but why didn't they replace them before a customer even noticed, right?
Haha, sorry about this. I am so weird. :P
I still buy the deformed bottles anyway. I like the drink so no real worries about the bottle.. maybe it's also just my silly way of telling them that I won't fall for their scheme (harhar). Who knows, there must have been some problem with the packaging over at the factories or something, right?
Anyway, just wondering if anybody else noticed. :P hihi..
~ isabel ~ posted @
Wednesday, July 29, 2009,11:42 AM
...well, for now at least. I'm just hoping there wouldn't be any great trade-offs for simple joys like these. As a friend of mine would say in Tagalog, "Hindi ba pwede maging masaya?" (Can't I just be happy?).
If the trade-off were to come though, at least I can say I was happy :) And of course, as another friend had said, "Still, that means periods of sadness never last, either." :D
Anyway, I had a great weekend...
Saturday was booze night at Ali's place with a bunch of COSCA people.
Got the cards out and played Unggoy-unggoy (Monkey-monkey) first and lost (boo!). Had to drink a glass of our blue-green experimental gin drink in one go (which made me palpitate and left me breathless.. but I didn't tell anyone until after the event, haha!)
Played Bullshit after and didn't lose (I played too safe though, haha, which is very characteristic of me.).
Quote of the night by Sandy:
"Anim na eight!" (6 eights) hahaha!
Unfortunately, I was in the ladies room when that happened. Just heard eveyone roaring with laughter on that one. They tagged that statement as SUPER BULLSHIT and it's very obvious why. :))
Sunday was rest day. Tried to get into something I've been wanting to do since I can remember. Not really successful but taking small steps to get there. :) I'll tell all about it once it's there. Don't wanna jinx it. ;)
Also, someone had contacted me regarding tickets for Spring Awakening which will be staged at RCBC this coming September-October. Hadn't even thought about this recently then someone comments at my plurk entry that she's selling tickets. Was overly excited as I've been really wanting to watch a play for ages.. and this particular one, I am REALLY interested with.
Hopefully the Philippine Production can pull it off. I'm no expert on theater but I've been reading about and watching youtube vids of the Broadway version.. and I can tell that there are big shoes to fill for this one. I heard about the auditions last year so I'm excited to find out who made the cut.
Yeap, I'm obviously excited, lol. (cheesy smile over here)
Oh, I also went to Church yesterday... Catholic Church, mind you. :) It's been a while (I've been able to go to VCF once in a while with my relatives but I'm still Catholic, you know) since I went to Mass and was glad I did. If you know me, you prolly know I'm not big with religion or religious issues...but despite all that, I still believe somehow. :)
Oh, in line with religion, Happy 95th Anniversary to INC. :)
Anyhoo, another Monday today and I envy the students. No classes coz of SONA.
Apparently, GMA has no intentions of extending her term (insert choir of angels)... No, I didn't watch but got tons of updates thru Facebook and Plurk alike. Anyhoo, words are words and we are yet to see what happens..
i remember thinking about you recently and telling myself how wrong i was. i treated you like you were a little kid when in reality, we weren't really that far apart in years (and i think you might even be older :p). i dunno why i did so, but it was a mistake. i judged you when all the while, i really didn't know you at all. i had this picture of you in my head all this time and when i suddenly realized how wise you were and how much i could and wanted to learn from you, it was already time for me to leave...
you taught me not to look down on someone who might be younger than me because i personally wouldn't want to be looked down upon by someone older than me.. it must've been pride.. yeah.. that's it, i guess.. anyway, screw age.. it's just a stupid number..
we had some good times but somehow, looking back... i hope we had more...and i wish i knew you more.
too late? maybe not...there are still lots of ways to catch up ...the circumstances however, will never be the same again.
For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head.. so that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere..a kiss so hot, so deep, you never wanna come up for air.
You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Coz when you finally find that right person, your first kiss..trust me, it's everything.
I am 9 years old (3rd grade) and it is a time when going to the library some sort of a contest. My classmates and I would look at each others' library cards and see who has borrowed/read the most books. I read but somehow, their lists were always miles ahead of me... but during these times, it didn't really matter to me.
I remember lying down on my bed one night, trying to suffocate myself. I had borrowed and browsed through A Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allan Poe (I think the pictures told the story more to me than the words), and I wanted to devise a way as not to die if anyone would ever put a pillow over my head. My tactics included facing sideways before the pillow could block my face, or acting as if I were dead and waiting for my attacker to leave the room...
Now, I wish my 9 year-old self would sneak in my room and maybe take my imagination for a spin, for old times' sake.
After that long discussion the other night (someone woke us all up in the middle of the night, ahem ahem ;-P), when I was still conscious but almost asleep, I thought to myself...
"I guess I do have more of his looks but.. I think I'm more like her."
It's unlikely that you'll stumble upon this little note of mine knowing how the both of you are not exactly the techie types, hehe (and if ever you do find this, I will find it totally awkward, HAHA). But I dunno, somehow I just wanted to let the whole world know how I'm grateful to (still) have you both.
I wanted to freeze that moment when he was cracking jokes while she was laughing her heart out. I was especially fond of the part where she said "Ako nakikita ko yung college friend ko everyday... ay, mga 3 times a week lang pala, hahaha" after I told them both how I missed my college friends. "Ewww. Spare me from the details, haha!" was my reply.
Sure, it wasn't and isn't always smooth sailing, I won't deny that. The setup isn't something everyone would be able to understand (and isn't something I'd be able to explain fully either, harhar), but whatever. I've always made my stand right from the start..
I will always love the both of you whatever was, is and will be. :)
I'm working on US shift and since July 3rd is considered a holiday, I took the day (night) off from work. Wasn't at all productive -- just slept, haha! Was supposed to get my driver's license but they (the LTO people) won't let me, haha (hmp!). Anyway, at least I got to recharge myself with my 17-hour sleep :) hihi.
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I hate to admit it but somehow, I'm starting to like my work life kahit papanu :) I'm learning a lot (and if you know me, you know I love learning! :P) and the pressure's building up but well, I think I can take it.
All systems go.. :D
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My parents are here! :) For the first time in ages, they're actually fetching me for the weekend, HAHA! Well, they're here for some other things but at least they're STILL fetching me. hehehe :D
(I'm in a happy mood, and I'm sure you guys can tell, hehehe.)
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Last but not the least, I gave in to peer pressure and I now have a Twitter account.
i've been described as such once or twice. sure, maybe it's a compliment, people older than me thinking that i'm wiser beyond my years and all. what can i say but thanks, i guess?
everytime i'm branded as such though, i can't help but feel a little pressured. what if there comes a time when i don't think or act mature all of a sudden (at least in their definition of the word)? i'm pretty sure eyes would start rolling and people would start buzzing like bees.. and i would surely hate for that to happen.. to me or to anybody.
(ugh, look at me, a slave of people's perceptions. reaaal mature, eh? hmm..)
anyway, just my anxiety for you.
me? i just treat people like how i wanna be treated: with respect. live and let live as they say.. for the judging ones, i feel sorry for you for being so perfect, although no hard feelings, you're welcome to rant as much as you want. after every word, i'll just look at you and say, "well, it's their life.. live your own and let them be." affected? talk to them, tell 'em how you feel. be assertive. can't talk to them? well, figure it out.. you adjust since you can't put your money where your mouth is.
oh, one other thing.. we should always remember we all have problems. well, there are those lucky ones who seem to have none (i know some of them, life is great and i'm sincerely happy for them). but anyway, we all have to deal with some sh*t in our lives so before you go thinking and nagging about how f*cked up your life is, how the whole world is on your shoulders.. try and think about how bigger other people's problems might be compared to yours.. much bigger.. and how great they are with managing it without having to rant like the sky is falling down on them. stop with the self pity.. get up and do something about it.
life's all about choices. you have no hold with how other people see things so if you want changes, you better learn and call the shots.
guilty? consider this a wake up call. otherwise, well.. it's your life, we just live in it. ;)
anyway.. me, mature. ha! please don't pressure me.. :D i can only take so much. ;)
