~ rants..rants..rants.. :p ~
**--on recent struggles..--**
..yeah, the battle's still on but i'm having doubts if i CAN make it through..
of course, i'm still still still trying my best..
i don't want to put myself down..
especially those who are expecting more from me..
don't wanna disappoint them..
but i guess i am human..
i'm no super girl..and even if i was..
super girls have their big blunders too, right?
"it's about accepting what's in store..but making the most out of what's left" .. :)
I hope i'll make it though..
He'll be the judge :)
wish me luck..*sigh*
**--tales from the mrt--**
"approaching gma/kamuning station..."--mrt driver..
being a commuter has its pros and cons..it is quite tiring but even though it's routine, it's fun seeing fellow commuters do their thing too :D
since commuting usually entails lack of sleep coz i have to leave the house at least an hour to get to class.. i usually take snoozes in the train.. :D
here are some of the positions you'll see me in while "sleeping" in the mrt :p hahaha..
*while sitting down:
(i rarely get to sit down for the trip going to school..but i always do for the trip home :D)
---elbow on lap, hand on forehead, crouched position
---bowed head
---head on either side
---head rested on window..looking up
---head rested on/hand holding the pole (doesn't sound good? haha :p)
---any of the metioned positions with my mouth hanging open..hahaha! not on purpose though :p
*while standing up:
---holding pole
---leaning by the window
---leaning by the side of a seat
---just..err..standing up..hahaha..(i've learned to work out my balance :p)
it's good that i don't snor, eh? hahaha :p
oh yeah, there was this one time that my knee kept twitching (while i was snoozing) and scaring this woman near me, (not to mention disturbing my sleep) hahaha :p
"taft avenue station, the last station..paki-double check na lang po ng inyong mga gamit bago bumama ng train..maraming salamat po at magandang araw.."--mrt driver..
**--on..something.. :p --**
i always love a good mystery..or anything that arouses my curiousity..yeah, i think that's the usual me..always wanting to learn more about things..
...and other stuff :p hehehe..
and THAT is usually the culprit why i end up doing things not supposed to be done and feeling things not supposed to be felt..as evidenced by..errr..a lot of past stuff..hahaha :p
oh, what the hell am i talking about..this is all a big joke..
oh well, gives me reason to smile albeit all the difficulties :p
*grin*
*bad*bad*bad*bad*bad*bad*bad*bad*bad*
**--on another something.. :p--**
i sooo loved reading amelie's latest entry :) haha..got to think about some things too..or rather someone :p hahaha..
i have no "really nice entry" prepared for that person at the moment..i don't really know..i haven't been thinking about that person lately..nor talking to that person or anything..it's just that..we found better things to do..other stuff to settle and nothing was in common anymore..
is it indifference?? hmmm..nah..maybe not.. but something close to that :p
it's not like we're not friends anymore..but for now, i'll have to settle with we're "okay" :)
..and that's not half bad at all :)
**--what else, what else..--**
i got sooo burned out the other day that i just wanted to drop everything and go away from it all..correction..go away from this all..
hayy, but of course, i can't really do that..at least not at the moment..
i kept on thinking about lots of stuff..and lots of questions like what's gonna happen? what if this? and what if that? what will i do? i wanna do this..but what if that..and so on..
*was soooo damn confused and emotional*
that's what no sleep weeks could do..make you weak in all aspects :p
i'm feeling better now..haha :) but i really do need a break..whew..
for now, i'll be sticking to what i've decided to do..and if there would be anything bad that would happen in the future..i'll decide what to do if and when the time comes :D
what else..erm..
nothing more for the meantime :p
might not update for a while..
take note: might :pLabels: bad moving on, better, emo, hope, life, outlet, something, tales, weak
~ isabel ~ posted @
Monday, April 02, 2007,10:11 PM
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