ver 3.0
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HAPPY 2011!
WOOOOHOOOO!!

Another year to have great adventures!

Let's go!!
rant@ 1/17/11 :P


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~ black&blue ~



*| isabel | many nicknames :P | 20teen 20ne | December baby | Pinay | Green | CBE Yuppie :P | frustrated.. everything :P | contradiction | curious | daydreamer | the late bloomer LOL | in search for more | open | neutral | smile freak :D | moody ;) |*

| God | family | friends | love | tunes | reads | life and living it | rain | sunshine | sleep | staying up late | artsy stuff | variety | internet | chatting | blogs | keeping it simple | helping out | cultures | drawing/doodling | talking | learning and doing new things | day(or night?)dreaming | dogs | memories | pictures | all things beautiful | happiness |

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~ looking out ~

~ cool stuff ~
~Improv Everywhere~
~Letters to Crushes~
~Travesty Clothing~
~Jiro's Deviantart~
~Post Secret~
~Newgrounds~
~30-sec Bunnies Theater Library~
~The IMPOSSIBLE quiz~
~Yahoo Games~
~Serious Shorts~
~What does your name mean?~
~http://youdiehard.blogspot.com~
~http://www.pinoyblogosphere.com~
~SA on B :)~

~ friends ~
~amelie colobong~
~arik abu~
~arnel cosme~
~avis alibuyog~
~carmela ugay~
~dominic yatco~
~earl foust~
~earl masacayan~
~gelo lecaros~
~java lee~
~jerica riego~
~jiro tamase~
~joice carrido~
~jose tanjuan~
~jowee corrales~
~julianne alberto~
~kat silva~
~katrina perez~
~liana colobong~
~mandy mangubat~
~merie clarete~
~michelle kim inot~
~mika lopue~
~mike esguerra~
~nancy bansil~
~paulene bucag~
~tessa tamase~

~ et. al. ~
~anton silver~
~bianca gonzales~
~jim paredes~
~neil gaiman~

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~ about.. ~

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.. sorry for being a lazy b*tch. lol.

I'm stuck in a different time zone as of the moment. ;)

--isabel--atebel--isa--bel--bei--

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~ looking back ~

~ term-end thank you! :) (overdue) ~
~ wishing, hoping, praying.. ~
~ a really happy easter :) ~
~ another day..another day.. ~
~ rants..rants..rants.. :p ~
~ the f words.. ~
~ release it ~
~ heartbreak.. ~
~ searching for something more.. ~
~ updates.. ~

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~ wishing on a star ~

reason
happiness :)
know and do what I really want
not be afraid
a music box :)
scream out loud
graduate :p

Credits
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udub
Thank You! :)

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In my daydreaming sessions, I often find myself revisiting a lot of my childhood memories. Those days when me and my cousins would just play around in the garden at home having nothing to worry about. No broken hearts, no stressing school activities, no insecurities, no issues, no worries for short. Hakuna Matata. Haaayy, how I wish I could go back to those days and enjoy the bliss of my innocence. But hey, the daydreaming stops and I find myself snapping back to reality once again.

I really wish I could just snap my fingers and go back, most especially when I am subject to how I am feeling now. I really don't know what to make of it. Would I be angry, sad or would it be better if I just pretend that it's just nothing and everything's alright even if it's not?

The last thing I would ever want to feel though is hate because as much as possible, I try to see the good in everything. But hey, we all have our breaking points. I just hope I won't reach mine anytime soon.

This is the reason why I have been so afraid of doing a lot of things all my life. I don't think a lot of people would believe it but I am so, so, so scared of taking a lot of risks and even small steps just because of this. Yes, I really feel so frustrated, especially because I could not really do anything about it. My intervention would only make matters far worse and that feeling of helplessness really drains a whole lot out of me.

I wish we could just all go back to innocence, not having to be crushed, to be hurt, to be disappointed. I wish I could wish this horrible feeling away. I wish I could make everything back to the way they were. I wish, I wish, I wish...

Unfortunately, I am not Aladin who has his Magic Lamp to wish upon, nor am I a superhero who could make everything alright through my superpowers. I am just me.

All I can do now is make the best out of the situation and pray to the Big Guy Up There for strength and guidance not only for me but for all the people I love.

I'm just glad that people are making things a little lighter..like the person who's text made me laugh just a moment ago and these two persons whom I am chatting with right now who aren't even that close to me but..i dunno, they make life lighter and worthwhile, and I thank them for that.

Anyway, tomorrow is another day. Even if life's like this, I'll never get tired of living it and keeping my head up despite everything.

*praying*

~ isabel ~ posted @
Tuesday, April 24, 2007,11:40 PM
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